Intro 2 The World Lyrics

I was scarred as a baby boy

Everytime I hopped in a car

Carried fear of the tires skiddin' the floor

Haagen Dazs, C.R.E.A.M

Why does a child dream of being poor

Mi primer amor, explicit image of lust

Seeps through my core

I was 4, ain't know what it was

But I knew it was foriegn

Most children see black when they close their eyes

I seen porn

I was 5 years old, curious with a friend all alone

Locked the door at a party

Stared at each other bare, but not too long

Knock knock, on the other side of the door

Hearts dropped, unlocked the door

Pretended that we were just playing with toys, boys

I was 6 years old

Curious, with a friend in the pool

His mama screamed from out the window with shock

What are y'all doing

Heart dropped, I wasn't sure

Grabbed my clothes and my scooter

I was a child

My innocence

Stripped by a computer

By the age of 7

Had my first crush

She wasn't 7

A 20 year old

Her chest would my touch my face when she hugged me

Thought I was in heaven

The ghetto princess

The whif of cigarettes

Her shorts were Kevin

Her Hart was tatted

Her eyes were green

The golden necklace

Her lashes batted

Since then, I knew I had a preference

I was an asthmatic

Still I sat on their couch with burn holes

Watching Chris Brown videos

Yo, I know you're out of my league

But, excuse me miss

Age 12, I remember well

First time I discovered my manhood

My hands rebelled

From teachers, to my friend's mothers

Mature women were like a spell

Every woman that I watched was like a God forbidden thrill

Asking God what's wrong with me

With fears of fireballs and hell

I had dialogue of confession

But I'd die and fall and fail

Age 21

Thought when I got married I'd overcome

I done told every story in the book

Except the one I'm running from

Flashback to 15

I was writing 16s

The school desk was my drums, huh

I had big dreams, the music was my lungs, huh

So many female friends

Yes, I stayed with 'em

Talked on the phone with some

And I prayed with 'em

Girl's got emotions

And I never played with 'em

If we ain't planning house and kids

Won't go on no dates with 'em

That was just me

Most of them didn't get me

Had their hearts inside my hands

But never did I mislead

BMF, just be my friend

Who you think you is? Big Meech

If we ain't planning to meet the family

We can dismiss WE

Old soul, I was saving self for marriage

Most dream 'bout mansions

Me, just little house on the prairie

Pickett fence, a pretty wife that's picking berries

Garden of Eden

What's that secret you were burying

Seeds from my youth

A boy that burned to touch a woman, somehow

Turned to a boy with a voice that would touch women, learned quick

The female gender loves venting

I've heard stories of rape

Stories of how she was a victim

Stories of how the grown adults around were touchin' them

Stories of joy, stories of pain

Stories were endless

With every conversation I witnessed, built trust with 'em

Confused after the calls, cuz I muted the lust with them

But still had this addiction that I knew would disgust women

The daunting question that arose after asking for God's forgiveness

Am I a womanizer, or do I love women

Confused

You were there for me

Never ignored me

Always support me

Do you adore me

I put you before me

If it ain't for you

Then, tell me what for please

Lord please

If something is wrong with me

Tell me what's wrong

I wanna know

When the thrill is gone the feelings all come back to the room

They say it's human nature

I know you want God's favor

But worry about that later

Long as you love your neighbor

That's not how I was raised up

We got no time to wait up

I fall and call my savior

We all need God to save us

I flip another page

New chapter we behold

They say it comes with snakes

And actors playing roles

They offered me a plate

I left it on the stove

I never liked to take

Cuz I never like to owe

Hollywood, I pray for you

The innocence they take from you

The poster child for souls

Plant my pivot in the post

I post the photo unfiltered

So I ain't gotta fix it in post

I was 17, never went on dates

Didn't know what it would take

Just go with whatever it brings

And hope for wedding and rings

ABC, thought it would be easy

Simple as 123, Do Re Mi

That's what Michael said

Baby, you and me

Legendary

This is necessary

My favorite month is October

But every month was February

Always had a way with women

She was the first I ever set to marry

Always hid my face from women

She was the first I ever let stare at me

If I lift this mask for you

Promise me you won't get scared of me

She's like the air beneath

She sees no error in me

If I'm Daryl Hall & John Oates

She was like Sara to me

When I felt like a John Doe

She was a mirror for me

Hilson, Keri

Love knocked us down

Because my love was well, bizzare

I cared for her, I cared for them

I cared for all

It guess it's how I buried

The past I couldn't reverse like Terry

To solve women's problems for me

Was like a wheelchair for a paraplegic

It's who I was, my nature

It was secondary

Am I sick

How did my loving heart

Become the burden I carry

What's with the all female Crews

Surrounded by coins like you're Terry

Like my childhood secrets

I know she don't wanna share me

What's this need to be the hero

This ain't Batman, this ain't Gotham

It ain't an exclusive Jordan tennis shoe

If everybody got 'em

Why when they need reassurance

They can fall on you like Autumn

Why when she need reassurance

She ain't got no one to call on

Sponge full of tears

We've hit rock bottom

I burst a lot of bubbles

With trouble, I played possum

She's my buttercup

But I couldn't help her blossom

It was hard to find the words to say

Cuz I felt like the problem

Being a therapist was like my therapy

I'm used to care taking

Not someone taking care of me

The public opinion

A friendly man is embarrassing

Hate when they sum me up

When I know that it's layers to me

High were the stakes for anyone to marry me

I've been needed, but was always one

To barely need

He open doors, he's chivalrous

He pull out chairs for me

What most saw as raw and real

Was never rare to me

She asked me why do you love me

What makes me different

I love her just because

I told her that and I meant it

A lot of love to give

She felt like everybody gets it

With hurt, I'm well rehearsed

But with her, I am unscripted

Gifted with words, but with her I get tongue twisted

Sift through her purse

Find the image when we were just kids

Hide all my flaws, because I saw them as a sickness

All of my ugly, my shortcomings, lifelong addictions

Why am I with her, it wasn't lust, it wasn't figment

It wasn't money, it wasn't goals, it wasn't business

Though she's a beauty, it wasn't preference, wasn't pigment

It wasn't humor, the way we laughed at the simplest things

It wasn't late nights with FaceTime on the ceiling

It wasn't long rides to override the distance

Wasn't the inkling to finish off each other's sentences

Wasn't the blue hearts or the paragraphs we sent in

It wasn't the arguments

Apologies, and forgiveness

It wasn't the broken hearts

That we doctored up and mended

It wasn't The Greatest Hits

Or the Al Green renditions

It wasn't For The Good Times we had

Though they were splendid

Why am I with her

Not cuz I asked for her permission

Why am I with her

Not cuz some manmade certificate

Why am I with her

Not cuz we love without pretending

Why are you with her

I imagine that's what God intended

Age 25, nothing to hide

Here's the dirt on me

4 years old, exposed

Somebody tell me what's birds and bees

12 and below, I didn't know

It didn't occur to bleed

13 and over, I'm fully aware

It started hurting me

I knew it was a problem

When it was numerous times a day

Couldn't ever overcome

But you could say I overcame

This is lame

Never felt more shame

Just to say the least

Counting progress

Sometimes made it days

Sometimes made it weeks

Even months, maybe it's for real

Hol' up, wait and see

Knock on wood

Lord, I been delivered

Clean up, isle 3

Back 2 1

I feel like a zero

The holes remain in me

Sploosh, go on and pull out the bucket out

This church, it has a leak

I work with the youth

I'm somebody's hero

But ain't no saving me

Contradiction, God I'm so convicted

Why Satan preying on me

I had 2 fears

When I was a child

Not clowns or creeps

Not the boogeyman

Monsters under beds

Not ghosts in sheets

Not the dark

Not the spider underneath the toilet seat

Not the doctor

Not the needle

Not the dentist drilling teeth

I had 2 fears

Fears that grown adults would usually keep

I had 2 fears

Fears a child shouldn't even think

1 of 2 fears

Accidents in cars, the tire screech

2 of 2 fears

Going broke and starving on the street

But through the years I grew a new fear

This fear was peak

It grew long hair

It grew tall too

Even had teeth

It could see

Even had 2 ears

It heard me speak

It wore my face as a mask

A reflection

This fear was me

Iverson, I ain't partake in no practice, but I could preach

Had a handle on words, could make a damsel's stresses cease

But when it came to my own, I was shallow as L.A. streets

Couldn't hold a candle to it

Carried value of bringing sand to beaches

Ain't that 'bout a BEACH

From my tongue, I vow no foul speech

I practice patience

When I'm struck, I duck and turn the other cheek

Shirt off my back, when they take from me

I give my coat as well

So help me God

I tell the truth and nothing but it, when I teach

So, help me God, I'm no fraud

I ain't that far out of reach

Am I Paul, is this my thorn

To keep me distant from conceit

Far from pride, I tried and failed and died

It must be meant to be

I stopped asking why, that's the moment

Where a voice had said to me

It's complete

First it was a day

Then a couple weeks

Couple months

I stopped keeping count

That which once repeated… was deleted

Measure of a man

Not when people see what he does

But when he's all alone

Tell me who is he

Age 24

Permanently stained but the chains released

Mark the date, December 16th, 2023

Age 25, two decades and some fries

Here am I in disbelief

Never Would Have Made It

In the Key of C

Marvin Sapp, been sent through hell and back

Just to hear the screams

The people's cry

Why'd you smote the rock, when he told you sing

I was blind, now I surely see

Every little thing

I can hear, the words she said through phone

They have a different ring

I would say

Chasing dreams, feels like I'm almost out of steam

She would say

Baby, don't mistake your calling for a dream

This is my intro to the world

Feel like I'm 'bout to blow up

If you know you know

They say it's human nature

I know you want God's favor

But worry about that later

Long as you love your neighbor

That's not how I was raised up

We got no time to wait up

I fall and call my savior

We all need God to save us

Guitar Solo

We all need God to save us