Origins, Part One (Crash Out) ft. J-Ideas Lyrics

Last thing he read, she wrote she was gon' kill herself

Liquor and pills in the tub and let nature heal itself

She would've called him and cried and told him that shit herself

But he had her blocked on like every site so she sent emails

He tried to delete each one she sent but no avail

But yet this one he opened and it made him stop and stare

Tunnel vision made him hesitate, his thoughts impaired

'Cause suicidal tendencies was not a theme he thought they shared

I mean, the ideation sure, but they were both aware that

They had people around them that loved them and that truly cared

But then she cheated with her ex and that caused a tear

Trust wasn't the same since and their Meek Dream story

Turned into a Nightmare, he tried to work through it

But the pain he couldn't bear it, told her he couldn't do it

"I love myself too much to ignore all of these red flags

For you and so we're through with all of this, we should call it quits"

Initially she seemed indifferent until she realized he meant it

She started blowing up his Twitter mentions

Facebook stalking, undercutting all his content

He had to change numbers and block her on everything

But it hurt him to his coure, cause he loved her with everything in him

So fast forward to this email and it hit him different

Because he know he couldn't respond or it open wounds

Only thing he could really do is pray to God she doesn't

Crash out (crash out) crash out (crash out)

Crash out (crash out) God, he's praying that she don't

Crash out (crash out) crash out (crash out)

Crazy, he's in a good space but over there she 'bout to

Bottles are everywhere

He gets a message on his phone asking if he was there

A name he hadn't seen in years just up and appeared

Been well over ten or so and so he stopped and stared

Feelings he thought he killed arose, but he's in grief and pain

Divorce papers on his desk to look over some things

Couldn't write or focus on music, he's so ashamed

One furnished room in his house was all that remained

The Facebook message asked if it was cool to talk again

Through blurry vision he sent some smiling emojis and

Said it was good to hear from her

She told that she's feeling nervous, she's getting married soon

He stops to admire the irony spinning in the room

He tells her congrats and asks her what day they jump the broom

She gives him the date, the same date of his former anniversary

And now he's questioning why is life so cruel

He's wishing he never responded cause now he's feeling stupid

But she doesn't sense a thing, she continues messaging

As excited as she can be while thinking they both moved on and

Are as happy as can be, like the earlier events ain't never happened

It's like time has healed everything for her

But he's sitting on the floor, letting alerts sing

Can't contain his grief, staring a hole through his wedding ring

Right next to his TV, used to think everything would work out

But mentally he dead in the water about to

Crash out (crash out) crash out (crash out)

Crash out (crash out) God, he's praying that he don't

Crash out (crash out) crash out (crash out)

Crazy, she's in a good space but over here he 'bout to

Crash out (crash out) crash out (crash out)

Crash out (crash out) God, I'm praying that I don't

Crash out (crash out) crash out (crash out)

Crazy, she's in a good space but over there I'm 'bout to