Bravery in My Bravado Lyrics

I don't mean no disrespect by this

But everything's not what it used to be, ya know?

And I feel like it's really important

For us to make the future what WE want it to be

You know what I mean?

That's all it's really been about

Yeah

I would say that I wanna make my mama proud

Cuz that's the typa shit that rappers like to talk about

And please don't take it like I'm dissin' on my mama now

But it's a reason why I left up out my mama house

And my intent here is not to just be rappin' foul

But to make you understand all of my fuckin' actions now

Cuz everything that I dreamed from the age of 13

Was in direct defiance of everything she was plannin' out

She wanted me to be a pastor or a deacon, see

I could serve the people in the name of a certain deity

But the inner me was screamin' in silence

Hypocrisy, and violence, and every time

I passed the plate it felt like thievery

And I can still feel the residuals of belief in me

Every time she calls me up and tells me she believes in me

But what I think she really mean is that she fear for me

And hopes my morals won't suffer from entropy, but see

I found Bravery in my Bravado

I found today in tomorrow

I couldn't beg steal or borrow

To find a place in this world

I found Bravery in my Bravado

I found today in tomorrow

I couldn't beg steal or borrow

To find a place in this world

Yeah

My mama taught me to eat my veggies

But now I smoke em

She taught me to rise early and read my devotions

But now the only thing I read is these comments on my feed

That' s full of real ignorance and fake emotion

Damn

And I still feel like I'm only going through the motions

And I love my mama, man, go ahead and quote it

But would I really be less twisted and still remain gifted

If the rifts in my history were no longer in focus?

Damn, that shit's a bitter pill in any dosage

The feeling unappreciated and hopeless

So regardless of my status or any successes granted

I still find myself chasing my magnum opus

I'm young, but I'm lookin' back like I'm reminiscing

I wanna change destructive patterns and demand division

Between me and the habits I've managed to create

But admitting to a mistake isn't the same thing

As asking for forgiveness

So when I say that I wanna make my mama proud

I'm not tryna' say I'm limiting my options now

But I could never fill the shoes that she prayed for me

Even though I treasure those kicks so faithfully

I just wanted her to understand my bravery

I'm tryna' be the shining light that they never gave to me

Even if that requires me attempting to deny

Every single inch of identity that was ever fated me

I found Bravery in my Bravado

I found today in tomorrow

I couldn't beg steal or borrow

To find a place in this world

I found Bravery in my Bravado

I found today in tomorrow

I couldn't beg steal or borrow

To find a place in this world

I found Bravery in my Bravado

I found today in tomorrow

I couldn't beg steal or borrow

To find a place in this world