NEGATIVE AFFIRMATIONS Lyrics

I think I hear the forest ache

Green grass turning grey

I no longer see that kid up in my face

Lookin in the mirror and it starts to breaks

I don't wanna paper chase

I just wanna feel ok

Sick of having friends just on surface level

Everytime I'm diggin deeper, it just leads me under gravel

Askin myself what is wrong with u, I'm on a kanoe without the paddles

And I'm headin straight to battle

And I'm beggin for a weapon, all I got is this satchel

Full of thoughts that reinforce that I'll be trampled by cattle

Only felt my self worth in little bursts that end up gettin burned

I screw up once and tell myself I wasn't worth the birth

Family trauma birthed this hurt everything I know feels cursed

I just want a break in this life

But this life don't give no breaks

Constant up and downs that's always in yo face

Lately life don't have no taste

Affirmations feel a waste

I see casltes on my face

Made of caluse made of flakes

Even if life gave us breakes

I wouldn't give myself a break

Cuz I look inside myself

And see someone that no one can help

And I've been feeling like I'm not the only one that can tell

I'm with this person with more beauty than anything else

And loves me so much, and I really hope that it doesn't fail

Hard to be in heaven when I've been drownin in hell

I just hope that they don't walk away if I'm stuck in this well

But this life just keeps on kicking and it hits below the belt

And it hits below the belt

And it hits below the belt

And it hits below the belt