TheMomentThatIWasBorn Lyrics

They say my music's too depressin

Well I've been thinkin bout my death since I was seven

And when I turned 11

I was wonderin if I took my life, if I'd see heaven

Ever since my birth I've only seen my parents stressin

At the age of eight I asked my mommas doctor if I caused her pain

And he laughed at me, but that was the only thought in my brain

And this belief was written down to my core

I'm a burden, it's something that I never ignore

Ever since I was born

My parents lost their dream house that they worked so hard to afford

They lost their health in the storm

And the drugs Always held an open door

Ever since I was born

My whole family's been poor

Only thing my momma ever adored

Was when I found her missin pills on the floor

I've been thinkin I'm a burden cause everything got torn

The moment that I was born

My mommas finally off the drugs

And I hope that, that don't change by the time this song go up

I remember on the worse nights seein her throw up

And knowin that, that's nothin that I wanna become

When I finally grow up

Shit I'm 22 I still feel like that same kid

Stressin bout the same shit

Always wanna break shit

Scared but I make myself face it

That's the only way to break this

Cycle that they lay in

And now my mommas sober, and maybe that's some answers to my prayin

She movin outa sober housin

Hopin she can make an income over foety thousand

And not be slowly drownin

My heart got too much panic that be floatin round it

To the point, I keep a nine up in my coat about it

Hopin I don't ever have to really rise to the occasion

And hopin I don't light one in my dome of contemplation

Cuz it's hard to cope with suicidal ideation

Shit I never really feared gettin older

Gotta plethora of these tears on my shoulder

They say love is a rock, and I always steered clear of these boulders

Cuz I always was taught that love's a plot to put a motherfuckin knife in my rear

I never thought I'd ever even make it to 16

I thought my death was sum the family was missing

Both my brothers struggled to show love

But now I know they would have definitely missed me

And let's be real, I was too scared of death

Just thought my absence would be best

But now I know if I left

My momma'd definitely be dead

And maybe juice would be too

Man he already attempted under that leaky roof

That we'd dread to come home to

That moldy drippy roof we could hardly speak through

That we could hardly see through

That we could hardly breathe through

Surrounded by abuse we just had to just fall asleep to

But to my momma and my brothers, just know that I need u

Absence would be best

But now I know if I left

My momma'd definitely be dead

And maybe juice would be too

Man he already attempted under that leaky roof

That we'd dread to come home to

That moldy drippy roof we could hardly speak through

That we could hardly see through

That we could hardly breathe through

Surrounded by abuse we just had to just fall asleep to