GROWTH Lyrics

Clip of Alex Caceres speach

I know what it's like to get the blade out

Look in the mirror and I'm lookin atmy face now

Need some typa way to get the pain out

So I take that blade and I scrape out

Everything that I hate

But I can't scrap it out

That's not how this life thing plays out

U gotta did deep and put your head on where your goin

Wipe away those tears before they get to showin

U can't get caught up in the moment

When u talkin bout depression

But talkin bout anxiety u can't be in the past or the future, it's the present

That u gotta be in, and take yo lessons

I think all of this advice is contradictory

Everybody thinks that they're a visionary

There's bits of truth to what they drew like it was pictionary

But it don't got to define yo whole damn life like it's the dictionary

It's all about a balance

Stop tryin to devalidate emotions in yo brain and form a caluse

All it does is rip u up and form some malice

Tear apart that part that built a wall around yo palace

Last people u let walkin put some toxins in yo chalice

And it changed yo perception on the world

Now all of that depression Manifested as aggression cause u can't talk what is pressin to yo girl

And it breaks out the beauty from the pearl

I know how it feels to think every day is feels

Is it in my brain or is it real

Gaslight myself, fight myself this is the deal

They grabbed my back for attack and lunged in the steal

And left me subdued

They took the blade and made out the wound

But I blame myself for the wound

I must have done something for them to be rude

I must have done something I don't deserve food

I must have done something I deserve these wounds

Uh

It takes me so long to realize

That I have worth

I don't have to earn

It's there at birth

It's ok to be hurt

And I should be heard

Growth ain't all about reachin goals

Growth about bein better than before

Yesterday u took three steps but today I saw u take four

I see pretty faces

Devastated

Fragile souls that feel invaded

Telling yourself u could be famous

Envious of those on stages

Envious of others bodies, wishing you could slowly shape-shift

U are worthy at this moment

Love is not your opponent

I can see u slowly growing

I don't want to hate myself

I don't want to break myself

I don't want to cut myself

I don't want to love myself

I pressure everyone else

To ask for help

But I fuckin hate to ask for help

Oh I fuckin hate to ask for help