Rock Bottom ft. JBreed The Rebel Lyrics

So this is rock bottom, the lows of the lows

Where you bury them problems

With nowhere to go

They say it gets better but how should I know

They call this rock bottom

But I call it home

I call it home

Built a home here down among all the gravel

Wound a little tight but I've begun to unravel

Paranoia got me thinkin' I need somethin' to battle

And it seems like doin' right has brought me nothin' but hassle

I feel so insignificant, just don't know what the mission is

I ain't afraid of fallin' but I'm scared to get kicked again

My heart is a stone fortress, so you ain't gettin' in

But pain is a cold sorceress, bitch has bitter winds

Now I'm frozen to the core

Stone face, no way you able to hurt me anymore

Got no faith in the human race

They only love you on the day you hit the morgue

And they're all so fake

You can buy their dinner, you still gotta guard your plate

Predetermine their winners and then they cry out fate

At least the rocks ain't gonna lie to my face

So this is rock bottom, the lows of the lows

Where you bury them problems

With nowhere to go

They say it gets better but how should I know

They call this rock bottom

But I call it home

I call it home

They say it gets better, won't tell me when

Can't explain how much it hurts to hold my pen

It's like I gotta embrace the depression

All the self-hate and aggression

Just to get entrance to places

I don't wanna go to again

Not sure I even got a soul I could spend (which side would want it)

But I'd pay to be alone in my head (sign where the dot is)

But I can't outfight my mind know

Cause I tried it all my life so

Every time I write, I try to make amends

I write these letters but feel like nobody listens

What I remember, this is how I felt in prison

Alone with my thoughts, is a precarious position

So I search for the rocks that I can bury my head in

Cause I'd rather be numb than to feel my feelings

Even though I know how much we both really need this

Trapped inside a dungeon of self-defeated

I know you feel the same, I'm just the one who speaks it

So this is rock bottom, the lows of the lows

Where you bury them problems

With nowhere to go

They say it gets better but how should I know

They call this rock bottom

But I call it home

I call it home

I make mistakes, so I know I'm not perfect

Nothing's given to me, I gotta show that I'm worth it

If I'm not worthy, then skeletons rise to the surface

Destined to be a king, but yet I'm living like a servant

Rock bottom was shattered pieces of bourbon

And empty pill bottles and with my blood slowly dripping from the curtains

So much pain in my eyes, can't see the same person

Body getting colder as the symptoms slowly worsen

Told my friends I'm not okay, but phone was drier than my cough

Didn't know what my fam would say, I'd probably piss them off

Started drifting off, and I took it as a loss

And I tried to pinpoint the exact moment that I lost

Won't accept help, but dark days becoming often

Get treatment for myself or this gurney will be a coffin

Gotta do it now, cause there's no later option

Or my ashes on a shelf, cause I hit rock bottom

So this is rock bottom, the lows of the lows

Where you bury them problems

With nowhere to go

They say it gets better but how should I know

They call this rock bottom

But I call it home

I call it home