This Is Now Lyrics

Mama was dripping not with diamonds

Nah bro, I'm talking morphine

Looking back at that hospice room in the back is an everyday daily core scene

To my navigation

My preparation

For thee elimination

Of the funny energy

It will never enter me

I will not give in to thee

Cause I was sent to be

The highest entity

Momma died there went the biggest fan of mine

Had I known it would be so sudden would of canned the time

Would have be better with relations with my fellow kin

Had I known it'd be instrumental to my betterment

Me and the bottle had to split like skirt, yeah for cert'

And for my demons had to tussle and get busy in the dirt

So ain't no room for any darkness or dimming down

Cause this is what you call the inner work

I used to think that I was it

I used to think I had it all

Silly of me I was a fool

To lost world to see my flaws

And I swear they'll go the mile if you allow

But that was then but thank God it's now

This round I'm in charge this time

And this peace that I found is mine

You dont know how much it takes to pick yourself up off the ground

Now I vow that there's no force that can weigh me back down

Cause that was then but thank God, thank God

This is now

Pointing the finger you will never win the blame game

Holding resentment unfortunately is the same game

You gotta learn to sit with self

work up on your better heath

Cause it's alot of shadow work up in the fame game

And ain't no moving if you holding on to pass things

And you ain't healing if you crying from your past flings

No, aint cruisng if you out here always crashing

You thinking you living baby girl but your just lasting

Tailoring life to fit others?

I'll be a misfit

Cause I dont want no body doubles in this big pic

Jewels and wrist flicks

Bottles and Pick6

Will keep your mind and your body down in a big ditch

When everything I been through made me stocky

Tell me who gone top me, block me ,stop me , crop me

No I ain't living this for them

Just when they thought it was the end it all begins

I used to think that I was it

I used to think I had it all

Silly of me I was a fool

To lost world to see my flaws

And I swear they'll go the mile if you allow

But that was then but thank God it's now

This round I'm in charge this time

And this peace that I found is mine

You dont know how hard it is to keep myself off the ground

Now I vow that there's no force that pull me back down

Cause that was then but thank God thank God

THIS IS NOW