HOPE Lyrics

I hope you don't think I'm beautiful anymore

I hope you hate my guts, the way I'll never hate yours

I hope when you think of how you hurt me

It makes you so happy

I hope you don't think I'm worthy of love anymore

I hope you hate my voice, the way I'll never hate yours

I hope that the thought you'll never hold me

Just makes you really happy

I hope when you're laying in bed

Maybe alone, maybe to someone else's left

You feel such a sense of relief

To be laying next to anything but me

When you remember my hands on your hips

I hope you're just ecstatic that we aren't gonna kiss

I hope you would be delighted to know how

I hardly leave my bed anymore

How my favorite waterfall drive through the trees

Only makes me cry until I can't breathe

I can't breathe

Until I can't breathe

And I really hope

You don't

Feel close

To how I do

I hope you don't feel close

To how I do

Because I love you too much

To ever wish this pain on you

(the cloves I hold over the candle make me feel some sense of control

I am patient I observe I want to listen and be heard)

(just trying to reach across state lines, just trying to feel you breathing in the night)

(life goes by too fast, you know that, don't you know that?)

(I'm crying on the ground I skinned my knees I think I've had enough)

The Benadryl bottle I leave untouched in the corner

(I've learned and I'll keep learning I've earned a chance to hear the story today I won't let books keep burning)

(Just trying to reach across state lines)

(Won't you miss me? Wouldn't you be sorry?)

(And though you pushed me down, that love you used to give will help me up

I'm dying on the ground I broke my leg I've really had enough)

The star and moon glitter that'll stick around forever

(Turn you around to see the sun this morning)

(Just trying to feel your heartbeat)

(Any breath could be our last, you really feel this is worth it?)

(And though you pushed me down, I hope that love you gave can help me up

I'll tell myself"I think you loved me once? that love can help me up")

And all your goddamn Gatorade bottles I can't get myself to move

(Next to mine)

(Won't you miss me once nobody can have me?)

(I'll tell myself again"that love you used to give will help me up"

That love you used to give will help me up)

'Cause I'm holding on to some stupid hope that if they stay, then

(Because you used to make me feel so goddamn loved

Even if it wasn't real, that is mine to keep)

So will you