Itsy Bitsy Sisyphus Lyrics

I only smoke when I'm drunk

And I only drink when I'm nervous

And I'm only nervous all of the time

My friends all say I've lost it

Cause these fears hold me hostage

But it's so nice to be held

Is that such a crime?

I don't know what I'm gonna do

Self-loathing stopped being cool

I wanna chase the boredom

But I'm scared of running into you

My self worth is classified

I'm fragile like dynamite

Might just blow us all to hell

But I'm scared of being impolite

I only dream when I'm sleeping

But I never sleep when I'm tired

And so I'm oh so tired all of the time

Stare at that 'hang in there' poster

As I keep pushing this boulder

If I imagine I'm happy

Does that make this all worth the climb

I don't know what I'm supposed to do

Not coping stopped being cool

I wanna replace my organs

But I'm scared of becoming something new

My self worth is in decline

I'm fragile like a landmine

Might just blow us all to hell

But I'm scared of ruining the vibe

I'm only calm when I'm breathing

But I can only breath if I'm screaming

And so I breathe till I loose my voice and my mind

Just when I think that I've found them

My demons have got me surrounded

It's so nice to be wanted

Even if it's dead or alive

I don't know what I'm supposed to do

Self-soothing stopped coming through

I wanna wrestle god

But I'm scared of being introduced

My self worth is crucified

I'm fragile like Jesus Christ

They say to err is human

But self-destruction is intelligent design