the first time Lyrics

For the first time i don't wanna die

I leave behind the light left in my eyes

That was yesterday now it's a lie

Devils son i'm too young to realise

Lost more leaves then my tree has left

I've felt the embers won't feel the ash left

I cut at the trunk till nothings left

I pray tomorrow i breath my last breath

I been through hell got nothing left

Heavens gates where my family rest

I'm so tired i need some rest

Look down on me but i'm trying my best

I'm trying my

I'm trying my

I'm trying my best

But

For the first time i don't wanna die

I leave behind the light left in my eyes

That was yesterday now it's a lie

Devil called i was too young to realise

I've felt the pain burning my eyes

But i'll still leave the world behind

I've burnt the skin from flames sky high

Scars don't heal but i was too young to realise

The hidden lies

Your diamond eyes

My crystal mind

Different hyphens of a dotted line

Like bullet holes in my glass timeline

Bridges gone from the embers burnt

I wish by now i had've learnt

The pain caused by blades hurt

More then myself it stains your shirt

The blood i bleed is yours to hold

I pray to god i don't get too old

I will take what i am owed

I proudly wear my green and gold

But

For the first time i don't wanna die

I leave behind the light left in my eyes

That was yesterday now it's a lie

Devil called i was too young to realise

I know the pain caused by leaves now gone

Family tree has no limbs of old

Can't dig up dirt in hopes of finding gold

Fingers green from my self hatred's mold