PEN BLEED 2 Lyrics

Picture me like a canvas

Thats pure unpainted

See my talent is unmatched

To ur my newt imagination

These colors are abstract

I adapt beyond what's basic

Since I imbody so much art

They try feeding me Erasers

Goodness gashes

Its been such a tuff road

With this awkward load

Its like having short arms still trying reach my goals

These bitter days turned my heart so cold

I need directions through life

But gps cant find my soul

Oh

Traveled miles

With this made-up smile

It Hides how I really feel

Guess Im stuck in denial

When life gives u up and downs

And tyrants wanna tip ur crown �

You take the stones they through at u

And build a kingdom from the ground

Now

I keep my grass cut so I can see what's living and breathing

I will never give a snake a chance 2 sink the teeth in

God wont give me a reason

So my pen gonna keep bleeding

They love vulnerable Skarr

Guess Im at my best when im grieving

Yeah

Guess Im a product of my father's fears

A genetic whisper of pain in my momma ear

Cut from a different cloth

They dont make this here

Anit no crying in my (genes)jeans

These anit no denim tears

I see through u all

Yall material sheer

Im just trying raise the bar

Like my reception aint clear

Im at a God tier

A job well done, Im still rare

Just trying to raise the steaks

To Caramelize my carrier

I act like things are OK

When they are not

ItS hard to except the pain when u a rock

I give out way more love than I have got

Probably why I laughed like IM insane when I got shot

True facts, bullet from a scared cat

In and out leg twice

could paraylazed my back

I anit panic I relaxed

Just smiling as I collapse

IM big Dawgs (roof) I ate that bullet like a Scooby SNACK

Tell them I just want a peace mind

To cherish me and mine

While here

Know Im on borrowed time

So God give me sign if u near

Dont let me be blind

I need your foresight

To see clear

Cause idk how much I can bear

Tell them

Give me a moment of clarity

If it falls on deaf ears

Hope they prepare to see

A man that's still trying

To make it here

Guess Im a slave to the page that you read

An author that wont make it further

Until this pen bleed

Trying distinguish between a Saint and a savage

Leave it in gods hands

Or kill anyone that matters

Not sure of Gods plans

He often Hides my small chapter

So I seat in solitude while replaying my rapture

The factor

Of it all,I been hurt by more

Piss broke poor

Investing

Back to.the drawing board

Back to the lonely boy

Or the man I was b4

Put ur faith in ur homie he put his faith in a whore

Fuck The brand up

Instead a just man up

2 get our bands up

He let her fuck.our plans up

The plans was

Just let me create

u handle business nigga

Left the goals over a hoe

But 4give u nigga

Go figure

Fuck love

I wont give myself a chance

Cause all the damage relationships

That took place in my past

None went according to plan

I felt less of a man

So privately I reiterated to a place I knew I could stand

2 my 1st love the one that was there when no one else was

Been my heart since 7th grade

She could read me like a text book

30 years strong walk by faith

She my left foot ,only ppl know how we felt was fats and toots

We had intentions on making a secret marriage

Private between us what established

Between our bdays so new years we could imagine

Then I received a text message saying that she

Parishes

What u know about having ur Dreams shattered

Over your middle school sweetheart that u

adored and cherished

Long live (QUETA) Enriqueta Davis

Hope in heaven u fairish

So 4 me to ever love again i don't think i got that much Carriage

Physical Im trying

Emotional Im dying

I tell myself Im ok

Knowing Im fucking lying

If you know the man that iam

How could u deny him

So.the tears Ive been hiding

Could turn me into Presidion

Tell them I just want a peace mind

To cherish me and mine

While here

Know Im on borrowed time

So God give me sign if u near

Dont let me be blind

I need your foresight

To see clear

Cause idk how much I can bear

Tell them

Give me a moment of clarity

If it falls on deaf ears

Hope they prepare to see

A man thats still trying

To make it here

Guess Im a slave to the page that you read

An author that wont make it further

Until this pen bleed

I've been fighting demons daily

And no one can save me

I face them head on

I just got that type of Bravery

I been in pain lately

Wonder if God hate me...

Or he just giving me this type hurt hoping it a change me

Its therapeutic for me just to write it out

Its so much on my heart

Im tired of stressing out

Although its so many things I haven't talked about

Lost all my breath from ventilating

Im just Bleeding out