Wrong State Of Mind Lyrics

Been reminiscing on the

Family gatherings

Never appreciated

The time I was having

While I was having it

Didn't show gratitude

Til I looked back at it

Had happiness

Now don't even have half of it

Tragedy happened quick

Auntie got cancer

I wish I could help her battle it

But I don't have have enough

To offer anything extravagant

Check my bank account

And it's as empty as my cabinets

I know I'm the catalyst

When everything negative

Asking God for the same blessings

Gets repetitive

Even when I'm on tour

Stressing in Connecticut

Can't move my heart forward

Unless I get a sedative

Settled in my bloodstream

Loss of my connections

Got me questioning what love means

Ever since recess

I haven't seen a upswing

Even though I've passed every test

But a drug screen

Ain't no way this life fair

But I'm saying my prayers

Running straight at my fears

Cuz I'm way too familiar

With the taste of my tears

To be thinking somebody

Gon save us round here

Life ain't never do us

Any favors I swear

Remember picking up the phone

Universal on line

I was thinking I was on

It still hurts me everytime

Looking back at it

Having high hopes

Always been a bad habit

I been meaning to break

So faded can't tell if

I'm asleep or awake

When everyday a nightmare

That's a easy mistake

Remember thinking death

Sounded like the sweetest escape

But that was just a mindset

I let my demons create

Had to break free

Like I got the key to the gate

Niggas hate me

That's okay cuz we can we relate

Never looked in mirror

Like what I'm seeing is great

Just another thing

I need to embrace

Deserve it but never shine

This nothing but the last bit

Of courage I could find

Even when it's

Perfectly aligned

It's right place

Wrong state of mind

The hardest part is

The hardest part's trying

When you thought they had your back

But nobody got a spine

Pops called

And I promised I was fine

I wonder if he caught that I was lying

And I been missing when

The vibe felt different

Never appreciated

The life I was living

While I was living it

If I showed anything

I just showed bitterness

Reminiscing on it

Make me feel so ignorant

Rissa still sick and shit

If I had a wish

Then I would get rid of it

But I don't have enough

To offer anything significant

Check my bank account

And it's resembling my emptiness

And I been seeking fulfillment

Since back when we was

School children

With the squad

Shit J could've went abroad

I had to realize my mental is a gift from God

Now I really feel like I can lift the odds

For all my fam

Til it's in our favor

Bro called me in a jam

I'll hit him back later

Way gamble with my life

You'd think I went to the raiders

Spend my time like I'm spending my paper

And waste it on the wrong things

Lying to myself

Claiming that I'm gon change

It's a long shot

And I ain't good

From long range

Trynna smell the flowers

That haven't even came

It's about how it's framed