something I never really had Lyrics

I know that I should want this

It's always been this way

If I change my life, choose a different path

Will the pain just go away?

I'm holding on to something I never really had

If it was never mine, then why do I still feel so fucking sad?

Cause I'm fraud and I can see

You're all disappointed in me

I don't even know who I wanna be (ooh)

Yeah, half my life is just an act

How can't anyone see that?

If I could, would I go back?

Back to who I used to be

(Why do I always have to overthink everything?)

(They're making all these exceptions for her)

(It shouldn't be this hard)

(I can't fall asleep)

(Won't you stay?)

(Did it even happen?)

(I wish someone had told me)