Lookingback Lyrics

I break my neck looking back

That won't put me in a cast though

I think my skeleton's bad

I think it's missing a backbone

Finally being an asshole took everything that I had

Don't think I live in a castle just cause I live in the past

We can't just get along

I sit and watch get on with it

Please stop with the arguments

Fence-sit on top of it

I tell a lie to be honest

Sweet tooth talking me rotten

I need to talk to a doctor

Stay on pace as I ran in place

How y'all winded running a relay race?

Y'all ain't really fucking with me to have me on as a teammate eh?

I went swimming under the sea

Got caught in the weeds

Knots all on my feet stay away

Swimmer's ear got in the way

Kicking and treading

Just keeping my head up

Biggest fear got in the way

The poking and prodding all got to me

I had to live with tears of anyway

I hid it under my tongue

I couldn't breathe under the weight

Now that the process is done

A sinking feeling in its place

There's no getting it back

I know that I gotta let go

When I'm surrounded by pitch black

I get distracted by dim glows

I made a wish that I didn't know

I want my ignorance back

Really thought it was that simple

I'm reminiscent of that

Doomed to repeat my worst mistake

I'll go on to a beat I hate

I do not want to fill my fate

I do not want to see your face when I close my eyes

Keeping me awake

Like my psyche isn't safe

There's no weight in your words

I hear the sentiment echo

I think that day was a curse

It should have ended at hello

After I let it all settle there'll be no settling that

Gasping for air, I got level

Now I'm left wriggling back