Always Almost Lyrics

I'm running late

Please could you hold the door

Cuz I'm still recouping

From the night before

Still feel the chills

From tiled bathroom floors

And it's a miracle

The pills are in the drawer

'Fore the sun came up

Almost killed the pain

A marbled grey headstone

Almost took my name

I go out and preach

How all my hurt's reclaimed

And I scream it loud

And hide behind my shame

Because it's always almost

This purgatory's all that I've known

I walk the street

But can't take it home

And I can kill the flesh

But I can't rid the ghosts

And it's never always

Unless it's alone at home

On every holiday

They say they will

But they can never stay

It's still not my time

Again it got delayed

I'm scared to sleep

Please could you hold me tight

Shield me from the bad

Like you're my shining knight

Spend all my evenings

Missing Mr. Right

And I still hope he comes

So I leave on the light

He's standing on the porch

But says he can't come in

Cuz it always ends

Before it can begin

Burned from the wrong flames

Tried to find the twin

A wound's the only way

He'd ever graze my skin

Because it's always almost

This purgatory's all that I've known

I walk the street

But can't take it home

And I can kill the flesh

But I can't rid the ghosts

And it's never always

Unless it's alone at home

On every holiday

They say they will

But they can never stay

It's still not my time

Again it got delayed

I close the door

And I do up the lock

Should just kill the lights

There won't be a knock

I rip the hands

Off of the ticking clock

The seconds passing by

Just means the odds are shot

This hopeless romantic

Finally dropped the hope

No longer fighting tides

Just sliding down the slope

If the end is dead

Why even try to cope?

There's only three threads left

Before I snap the rope

Because it's always almost

This purgatory's all that I've known

I walk the street

But can't take it home

And I can kill the flesh

But I can't rid the ghosts

And it's never always

Unless it's alone at home

On every holiday

They say they will

But they can never stay

It's still not my time

Again it got delayed

It's always almost

It's always almost

It's always almost

It's always