Here I Am Now Lyrics

I talked to my therapist today

She told me it's okay

Not to be okay

I said I have a life to live

I don't care what she did or what she said months ago

45 minutes go by

I'm sitting in my room thinking about why

Must I feel these things in my heart

I don't wanna be teared apart

Okay here I am now

I'm feeling all my feelings and I don't know how

I kept it under wraps for as long as I did

Now I'm breaking down and I need a plan

I put it in a box

I kept it far away

I told myself that if I thought about it

I would break

Cause I can't take more pain

I think I reached my cap

I don't know how to act

I think I finally cracked

I think I finally cracked

Now I can't hold it in

It's just as bad as I thought

I wanna push it back in

But it won't go away

I have to feel it through

I have to feel it through

Okay here I am now

I'm feeling all my feelings and I don't know how

I kept it under wraps for as long as I did

Now I'm breaking down and I need a plan

Okay I'm feeling it now

I think Leaman would be proud

My thought are doing it's own thing

My eyes are leaking and so is my brain

Help me

Find me

I don't wanna be this little girl who's crying to herself on the floor

I don't wanna do that anymore

Show me

Teach me

I been having difficulty tryna be the person I was before

I think I need more

Help me

Find me

Show me

Teach me

I'm having difficulty

Tryna believe

Tryna believe

It's gonna be okay

It's gonna be okay

Okay here I am now

Okay here I am now

I think I'm feeling it now

I think I'm feeling it now

You should be proud

I think I'm feeling it now

I'm feeling it now

I'm feeling it now

I'm feeling it

I'm feeling it

I'm feeling now

No

Okay here I am now

I think Leman would be proud

Okay Here I am now

The feelings are getting too loud

Okay here I am now