THIS END UP Lyrics

It might've been a new world record

A broken man at 23

I don't want to end up like Daniel Johnston

Just always fighting the devil that's inside me

I know that I'm not normal

I also hate I wrote that line

I'm sure that I'm not special

Been feeling this way ever since like Junior High

All the time and it's no good for me

I don't know how else to live

I don't want to end up like poor Elliott

Smith a knife sticking out of my ribs

In case anyone was wondering

Yeah, I'm struggling

I can't remember a time when I wasn't

Anger always bubbling

Self-medicate to feel nothing

Pretend it helps but really it doesn't

Always chasing the next buzz

And I'm so sick of being a whore (that's me)

I don't want to end up like Nick Drake

Just hiding from the black-eyed dog at my door-

Frame no way out of this game

I'm stuck inside a modem hum

I have a home I have a job

But that doesn't stop me from being a modern bum

A smoke sure I'm always giving (smoke some)

Even though there's not much to take (take some)

I don't want to end up like Syd Barrett

Fried by the LSD what's left of me?

My mind's at stake

This disorder's caused division

Joy is a constant decision

I force myself to feel peace within

I laugh at fools' derision

Follow my inner visions

I will feel at home within my skin

They can't take that away from me

You can't take it away from me

You can't take me away from me