would u still love me if i didnt exist Lyrics

Would you still love me if i didn't exist at all?

Would you still want me if was negative 6 feet tall?

Cause I don't know if I wanna do this anymore

I'm begging you just keep loving like you did before

If I destroy my liver maybe I'll go nice and slow

Blacken my lungs gently till time just lets me go

If I eat more shitty food and forget to hydrate

Then maybe they'll see it as an accident and not a horrible mistake

If I give up on my dreams for a dollar or a dime

Then giving up on life shouldn't be a heinous crime

They'll say I was too young like the ones who went before

But i'll tell you this wasn't my fault i never asked to be born

They'll give an open viewing and then burn me ash

Maybe life was worth living, just depends on who you ask

Would you still love me if I wanted to die?

Would you hold me tightly and whisper a lullaby?

Cause I don't wanna do this anymore

You'll be fine, just live like you did before…

Would you still love me if I was gone?

Would you write me poems, paint a picture, write a song?

Would you still love me if I was gone ?

Or would you find a way… find a way… to carry on…

If i wrap my car around a tree

Will I finally get some honesty

Of what everyone ever thought of me

Everyone never thought of me

If I cut my hair and move up north

Will I finally find some self worth

Will I finally ever start to see

What I never thought i'd be ?

If I get a job and lose the weight

Will I finally not be a mistake

Or will I finally learn the consequence

Of doubting one's own competence

Would you still love me if I didn't exist at all?