fuck getting better, I want to get worse Lyrics

Fuck getting better

I want to get worse

Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts

Wanna block all my friends

Wanna drink myself silly

Wanna sneak out at night

And run so far away 'til my phone loses service so I'll crack the screen

I'll douse my belongings in gasoline

And I won't return until I've found my purpose

If I die out there

I deserved it

Sell all my things and I'll backpack to Jersey

Under a different name no one can hurt me

I'll ignore everyone who reaches out I'm

I'm busting out

Cause Fuck getting better

I want to get worse

Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts

Wanna block all my friends

Wanna drink myself silly

Wanna sneak out at night

And run so far away 'til my phone loses service so I'll crack the screen

I'll douse my belongings in gasoline

And I won't return until I've found my purpose

If I die out there

I deserved it

Maybe the reason that everyones leaves

Is that I'm too hard to please

I want to improve but baby I'm losing myself in the dark

In the dark

I keep getting worse

But I should get better

It's too fucking hard to keep my shit together

I wanna give up

I wanna break down

I push them away then wish they were around

So maybe the reason that everyones leaves

Is that I'm too hard to please

I want to improve but baby I'm losing myself in the dark

'Cause fuck getting better

I want to get worse

I'll skip every meal cause I like how it hurts

Wanna block all my friends

Wanna drink myself silly

Wanna sneak out at night

And run so far away

And run away

Fuck getting better

I want to get worse

Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts

Wanna block all m friends

Wanna drink myself silly

But I've got to improve if I want to love living

I've got to improve if I want to love living