Lost It All Lyrics

Rello

I've seen some things, left me traumatized

Like that one night, when my momma died

They told me stay calm, yeah I'm really trying

The goodness in me, well it's barely alive

No heeding this warning, well it's your death

You gotta realize, I got nothing left

I wake up at nights, feeling cold sweats

But somehow I feel that I'm still blessed

Tell me what it is you want from me

Been cut so many times, I can hardly bleed

Tryna be a better man for my family

Throw a seed watch it grow, that's a family tree, yeah

Tryna keep it all peacefully

Like a rope, why my people keep on tuggin' on me

Lost it all, I'm just tryna find how to proceed

Like the fall, feelin' like I really wanna just leave

Losing the people you love, only in the span of 18 months, yeah

Drowning it out getting drunk, man, feelin' like I wanna erupt

Mm, feelin' so high doin' drugs, I really forgot where I was

Really forgot where I was, thinkin' that I got no love

Bodies of lies, severe of truth

Watchin' them cry, what do you do, damn

Figure it out, don't got a clue

Chaining me up, lettin' you loose

Takin' the pain, hurtin' for you

Numbing every single thing so they don't have a clue

Takin' every single shot so you know I'm a troop

Got me prayin' on my knees, Lord, you know what to do

I've seen some things, left me traumatized (I did)

Like that one night, when my momma died

They told me stay calm, yeah I'm really trying (I Tried)

The goodness in me, well it's barely alive (it's gone)

No heeding this warning, well it's your death (it is)

You gotta realize, I got nothing left (at all)

I wake up at nights, feeling cold sweats

But somehow I feel that I'm still blessed mmhm

Pardon the guilt that I have on my mind

Destroying myself and you know when I'm lyin

Eatin' me up and you know when I'm tryin'

Please help me, oh, Lord, cause my family dyin

You told me come to you in prayer, my Lord

Seeking your guidance, I'm lost, you know it, yeah

Seeking your guidance, I'm lost, you know it

See my mind be back, forth, left, right, up, down

You ain't even know what it is that I even feel right now

Somebody come and tell me how

How the dark steady callin, my family fallin',

But I guess it's the fate of somebody that hate

When it comes to the evil that's callin

Talk to me now

Could it all be mental?

Do you even know the symptoms?

Destroying the spiritual

Cause the lost of my kin folks

Now breakin' the physical, man

But I guess it's a mess, treasure box in my chest

Of every sin that I bottled

Could it all be a test? We'll, gather their heads

Cause I am the sleepy that hollows

The evil that follows

Might not have tomorrow

Who time can I borrow

And I'm tryin' to figure out

How to digest this pill that I swallowed

And I'm feelin' so sick, and I must admit

This livin' is not what I thought of

My heart has been ripped, I have been split

God, are you hearing me calling

I've seen some things, left me traumatized

Like that one night, when my momma died

They told me stay calm, yeah I'm really trying

The goodness in me, well it's barely alive

No heeding this warning, well it's your death

You gotta realize, I got nothing left

I wake up at nights, feeling cold sweats

But somehow I feel that I'm still blessed mmhmm

Groaning sounds of pains