Hey Sis Lyrics

It's been a week

And the air has already begun to thicken

A fog of resentment grows between us

Clouds my vision

I could reach my hand and lift it

You could reach yours and pull it away

But we don't

It becomes a wall

Bricks of blame piled

One on top of the other

The silence is seductive

In it I let myself forget

In it I tell another story

Where I am faultless

It's been a month

I am growing a seed in my belly

A baby blooms right beside

The hard fruit of my pride

I'm making a life

So I make this my holy purpose

I am tender and fragile

So the phone is too heavy to pick up

It's been 6 months

And I turn my face further away

Call it busy, call it life happening

I build a cathedral of self-righteousness

And hide my fears in it

I sink into a childlike state

And sulk my way into my second trimester

The baby grows and so does the distance

It's been 9 months and I am bloated

Waddling on swollen feet

I'm having a baby and you are not here

I can't reach my toes now

And I can't reach back in time

It is elastic and merciless

But it does not snap back

The baby is here

His birth drags every open wound closed

Yet there is one hidden in a poem

I cannot write because in it

I am the villain

I nurse my boy and I nurse my wounds

I swaddle the baby and curl into myself

It's been 4 years

and I don't remember why

I swear, I don't even remember why

But who knew a telephone

Could be a portal a bridge

A suture that binds the wound

A door swinging open

We walk through and time collapses

We talk for hours

Beg the moments back to life with our laughter

There are so many things to say

Yet the only words that really matter are

Hey sis

I'm sorry

Hey sis

I missed you

I missed us