Agoraphobic (Special Version) Lyrics

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

Cause I can't do shit right

I can't learn my lesson

I can't do shit right

Take anti-depressants

Religion and Daddy robbed my adolescence.

My friends probably hate me

Can't answer a message

I'm filled with anxiety

Always be hiding me

Feeling inadequate

Is always what's driving me

Not a role model

That's not what I strive to be

Don't go outside cause sometimes it's not me in me

Paranoid about it constantly, yeah

It doesn't matter what you do

I'm gonna say I'm okay

Even when I never finish all the food that's on my plate

"How do you do it?" few will ask me if they actually know my name

'Cause I've faked this perfect smile for about 8000 days

Well I grab the red wine on rainy days and then I pour it

'Cause that's how I've learned to cope

A borderline alcoholic, yeah

I spend my days inside

Waste my time while I'm scrolling

But I love it when it rains

'Cause I'm agoraphobic

Well, even if no one knows it

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

What's the point

I'm not okay

What's the point?

I'm not okay

I can't do shit right

I can't learn my lesson

I can't do shit right

Take antidepressants

Anything I do feels like something is missing

Don't know what to do well

At least not while livin'

I don't know why

But I think it's kinda funny

How hard I try when nobody even knows me

What's the point honestly?

Yeah

All you social butterflies

Yeah I wonder how you do it

'Cause I only know how to sound extraverted through my music

It's okay to be who you are

There's no invalidating that

But I just wanna know

'Cause I'm tired of being alone and sad

Got entire friend groups online

'Cause I'm a poet

Got everyone Lol-ing

At a joke before you know it

It's ironic

'Cause in person I am quiet, even stoic

And I love it when it rains

'Cause I'm agoraphobic

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

What's the point

I'm not okay

What's the point?

I'm not okay

When I step outside

I feel like someone always after me

Dastardly

The world out there is

Actually

Even worse than you think

So I run faster

The only time I feel safe out there is when I'm masked, you see

So I'm staying inside

Probably scrollin'

On my favorite rainy days

Outside it is pouring

'Cause I don't know how to change

So I try to just own it

Yeah I love it when it rains

Cause I'm agoraphobic

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm not okay