Perfect Person Lyrics

And I'll admit it, man, I haven't been a perfect person

Even when I try to make it seem like

My life is all flowers blooming, birds chirping, but

I gotta face it, nothin built to be perfect, uh

All of the times where I felt so hungry for attention

All the times that I don't even want to mention

All the times where I feel like I hurt my best friends

It sounds so crazy, I know

But I feel it deep in my soul

Know I messed up a few times, wish I could scratch out the lines

And rewrite what I did when I was acting like a kid

I let my feelings get the best of me, they always do

Created change where nobody wanted me to

I said that time would let it pass, I really thought it would

Got left in the dark, I thought I messed it up for good

I woke up that Sunday morning with so many regrets

Connecting dots, oh, so that's why I ain't getting no texts

Hated myself for all my overreactions

That I had in the past, I felt so bad 'bout my actions, uh

Your name lights up the screen, I put my thumb on the green

I'm owning up to mistakes, need you to know what I mean

I knew that we'd work it out, was still prepared for the worst

I really thought that you hated me, thought we took a left turn

But by the tone of your voice, I knew I wasn't losing

It wasn't even weird, you said that there was just confusion

I still felt sorry, still apologized for acting stupid

You said "It's no big deal", we brushed it off and kept it moving

But did I say enough before we hung up?

Know I shouldn't be hung up on something so dumb

And I know you're sick of me being this way

Because you already forgave me, moved on with your day

I still thank God that we just moved past it all

I still thank God that you called and recognized that a friendship like that can't fall

I know you'd say that I reflect too much

But we stuck together, and I can't thank you enough

And I know that nothing I did was that bad

I'm just an overthinker, but you been knew that

(So, like, thanks for putting up with me)

And I'll admit it, man, I haven't been the best of brothers

Making sure my people there with me, but am I there for others?

I get so focused on my own endeavors

Need to try and get up out my head when all my folks together

Whatever, 'cause the damage is done

Sometimes the one thing I feel good about is being a son

Sometimes I wonder how I got to dropping from number one

Maybe 'cause when you open up, I just reply with a shrug, damn

I woke up that Sunday morning with so many regrets

Retracing my steps with a knife in my chest

But my eyes were shut, I was blind

To where that shit was really coming from this whole time

I made myself sick, my head was pounding, my heart was pounding

I couldn't stop shaking, I couldn't calm down

Finally picked up the phone, and by the tone of your voice

It felt like I was losing, like a painful conclusion

Wish I could find a way other than writing a song

To say you belong, to say that you loved

To tell you that I opened my eyes

To tell you that I know my imperfections went and shifted the tides

And despite it all, I hope we can agree that it's best to just go and forget

Even though we both feel some ways 'bout how it all went down

Just pay a visit when you come back in town

And I'll admit it, man, I haven't been a perfect person

Even when I try to make it seem like

My life is all flowers blooming, birds chirping, but

I gotta face it, nothin built to be perfect, uh

All of the times where I felt so hungry for attention

All the times that I don't even want to mention

All the times where I feel like I hurt my best friends

Gotta quit acting like my life is a movie

All the times that I thought, "we doing this for the plot"

I think they hurt me a lot, 'cause when conflict came

Didn't know how to respond, I didn't know who to blame

I think I'm blaming myself, I think I'm done with this game

I think it's time to be grown, find something else to keep sayin'

If you act like you a star, you won't get that far

'Cause life ain't built for that shit, I've been adapting and shit

I turned eighteen, had times I didn't feel loved

But what I had was enough, people who cared about me more than I could ever know

What do I even know? Nothing, I guess

'Cause I would get so down, I would forget that I'm blessed

And now I'm writing 'cause I always get reflective about it

And it's so stupid, 'cause I keep on talking 'bout it

That's why we need the mountain, that's why I need to climb

That's why I need renewal, so I can finally shine

And let's admit it man, nobody been the perfect person

'Cause we all been going through it, it's called being human