Drown Lyrics

I had a dream swear it was real it felt the feel of a real real

I was a girl and falling falling wind slamming heart racing

Pain in my breast

Water wall chasing and slam knocking the air out

No air in

It was a suicide

I was a suicide

And it was real

First it was shock and fear

And then it was real

A surge coming from deep in my gut

Deep from my soul

A panic that hey I could try this again

Maybe find a friend

It was panic desperation

And my need for air

Compounded by the shock

Just reflex I took in maybe a cup

A teacup straight down all the way down

And in hysterics I pushed everything out of my lungs

As it rushed right back in like a magnet

I took in a liter at least

Thinking must be some air in water right

It was less than a split second, not enough time

But for a small packet of thoughts,

Not enough to make reason

Just a feeling of thought

Sinking deeper into the no turning back

Every heartbeat pound

Slowed down

Pictures of my remember

Can't see light or up or down

Limbs tremble, all muscles cramping at once

I end I end I end went on and on and on

They said it was peaceful to drown

They said the end was pleasant

The end was regret

And a will to survive at all costs, without a body that responds

I wanted babies, a man, a job, jokes, romance

All I could think about was honeycomb and shoe buckles

Daddy's lucky coin and naked boys at camp

Kissing Jenna pretending it was Sam

Patches of blackness standing out

Something hovering weightless around my head

It was real

Deep from my soul

I can't tell you after that

Except don't do it it goes on and it's horrific the seconds don't pass by

The second lasts forever