Doubt and Hope Lyrics

Huh

Forced to yearn and desire

Living in lack and inspired by mire

My opinion matters like ash in a fire

My ire wired to my side

Tell me my thinking implores

What my eyes see

Why be authentic?

Can't even be afraid for a minute

It's offensive

Is it realistic, or ripe for derision?

Lately I been thinking bout contentment

I place intention in my daily living

And let wisdom filter my experiences

I really been tryna get it right

In its time, it'll be mine, be sublime

Bring me life

In my mind's eye, see the vision

Equilibrium give me stability

In stepping freely through revisions

Giving me remission of sins

In my head

Inside, I watch my steps

I heard what you said

I'm trying to find what's next

Yeah

Living in my head

Inside, I watch my steps

I heard what you said

I'm trying to find what's next

I'm scared to doubt and it fills me with dread

I can't let you treat me like I have no head

I hope I can live out the good that I've read

In my head

In my steps

Am I really faking?

Hm, hm, hm, (sometimes I think I am)

I'n wrote my pages

Of contemplations, across my stages

Yuh, yuh (always performing)

I'n spent my days wavering

And savoring my pain

Turning yays into nays

Plagiaring ways of the days prior

Paying attention to things I shouldn't

I make my endeavor to be better

Better than yesterday, I meditate

On better ways to extricate

Myself to a better place

Place faith where it's meant to lay

Tell myself everything is gon' be okay

Grateful for the better days

I don't really expect them to stay the same

But I pray that I'll be okay

Whatever happen, and whatever change

See whatever you touch in this life

It can turn to vapor

That's why I don't idolize chasing paper

If delulu gets you through

Your day to day

Then hey that's great

My hope is still finding its way

Listening back to my words

I can hear myself giving up

Cause I'm tired

I'm trying to get up

Get off my back and just sit up

I don't see a silver lining

But I think that's fine

Cause everything doesn't have one

I practice acceptance, and struggle to live in contentment

I see my behavior's offensive

But staying the same is so tempting

Huh

Trying to be humble and listen

But seeing the message is twisted

Enlisting my mental to give in and

Get what the person is saying

They act like I don't even have a perspective

I'm always a stone's throw from tweaking out

I'm tryna give up control and see it out

I'm tryna make sure I don't repeat

The same old mistakes

I see'em, tryna beat'em out

I'm tryna see if I really matter now

I want me and Yah to sit and have it out

There's more I could say right now

But three minutes the longest

I think yall will stay around

Living in my head

Inside, I watch my steps

I heard what you said

I'm trying to find what's next

I'm scared to doubt and it fills me with dread

I can't let you treat me like I have no head

I hope I can live out the good that I've read

In my head

In my steps