closure (Poem) Lyrics

For three lousy fortnights, the fantasy was finally real

Just for you to inevitably realize that's not how you actually feel

Believe me, I'm annoyed too that this is the subject I've kept circling around

But I can't help but do so cos I still don't know EXACTLY how much you were BS-ing me about

You clearly lied about your fear of commitment because now you're engaged

I always thought when I found out it'd be great, but at the moment it's something I'm very unsure how to embrace

You have to have been lying to some extent about being in love with me for so long

I refuse to believe you decided spontaneously to pack it up and say "so long"

I'm still waiting on a phone call or even, like, a "let's talk" text

I'm not afraid to be alone at all, just unaware when I'll be swept off next

If someone can be as crazy about me as you were and just drop me off the way you did

How much easier would it be for literally anyone else to do the same bullshit?

And don't get me wrong, if you'd like I'd be overjoyed to take you back

But also, if I never saw or heard from you again, I'm sure I'd probably be okay with that

But with that I do still pray for you, even though for me, for us, you quit putting up a fight

I pray for him too, because as much as I wanna hate him I simply don't have the right

I'm disappointed, I'm angry, I'm scarred

But, no hate

I'd still like for us to patch it through and talk it up someday

But I've already tried so now it's on you to make the call, so grow up and make it

And until you can, if you ever see me anywhere at all, you better stay far, as fuck, away

Love ya dear

Talk soon