myfriendscouch. Lyrics

Tear soaked face shakey hands flick the lighter

Find it hard to open up I was raised to be a fighter

Find it hard to say no I was raised to be compliant

Find it hard to love right all our fights where reminders

Can't say I won't miss you

On a friends couch empty boxes of tissues

Not religious but I know I'm god

Can't control my life til I know to control my thoughts

Heavy is my heart from the day that I learned to talk

Weight on my chest in every room do they see a fraud

I lied so long that the truth feel wrong

I mean I guess Im okay til the drugs all gone

And the people all gone and the music shuts off

And I'm alone with myself I can see who you are

And there's the root of the shame

Pain and self loathing who really remains

I'm a shell of a person searching for fame

Girl fill that hole but it's cold as your grave

I chased my goals like it'd make me okay

And I pushed myself until I pushed you away

And I acted so long I got attached to the play

I need to sit with myself I'll love her one day

Tear soaked face shakey hands flick the lighter

Find it hard to open up I was raised to be a fighter

Find it hard to say no I was raised to be compliant

Find it hard to love right all our fights where reminders

Can't say I won't miss you

On a friends couch empty boxes of tissues