My mind / Fake smile Lyrics

Hey, hey pick up the phone. We've been waiting on you. So much. And you still haven't come out. Why

Why did depression always happen to me? I don't understand. Going through so much, I'm crippled on the ground, they don't understand

Nigga, get out my face before I run up this fade. Nah, I'm playing. I'm just a simple little boy inside my mind. I'm trapped in it. I don't know what to do. Running out of cycles, they always say you can do something

But in my mind telling me I don't know if I can really do it. Then I say I'ma kill myself. Then I don't. Then I murder these people in my mind. But they don't really happen. But they always wanna see what happens in my mind

Like what is this? Oh my God. When I tell people how I truly feel, they don't understand it. They wanna murder me instead and then say cancel me or something else. I don't know what you mean. I'm just trying to speak, but they don't understand me

Mind over mind. Mind over mind. Mind over mind. Mind over mind

Darkness taking over me. I don't know what to be. I am not free man. I'm so covered by these darkness covers. I don't want to escape. But I really want to escape. But there's nothing I can do. Honestly stuck in a rut. Like what

And I don't want to change it. I'm just a mutt. And darkness my friend. So what? And you don't understand. Then you can leave. I don't understand why these pests is over me. I don't know why. I'm a king. Nigga get out my way before I blow up like a fiend. I'm sorry. I got a little over carried. I just want to be cared for. Just like Mariah Carey. Nah I'm playing. He didn't do shit. I'm just a king of my own world. But I gotta keep on living this life

Oh my god. Here we go again. Rumbling in my head. This is it. Ok. Ok. Wait. Give me a chance. I don't know what to do. This is not my friend. This is darkness talking me to him. Here we go again

Here we go again

Pterodactyl nigga. Biggest clown in the city. Can't you see? Man I'm riding a big ol' rover. What these niggas want from me? Faking my smile. Now I gotta frown. In my mind now. Can't let people down. Cause that's the only way it make me smile. Darkness and rainbows the only thing that make me happy

Man it's so weird cause I say the same thing. But everybody wanna hear something different. But then I get no views on it. What you want from me? I'm spitting it. Niggas always say yeah yeah yeah. When they hear my music bitches always say yeah yeah yeah

Wanna have money. Man that's kinda funny. Man I don't understand this world. Always wanna kill myself. But they say they can't do that cause that's wrong. Then god will send you to hell. Man I don't wanna know anything about that though

Man I just wanna be happy. But I feel like I'm being punished from this world. Every time I do something right. Always gotta do something wrong in this world. Man I hate it so much. It's a cruel world. Over thinking to process the game. Everybody gotta run they fake. When they see me I'ma punch em in the face