Can I Just Fall Apart Tonight? Lyrics

I couldn't fall asleep tonight

So much on my mind

Searching for answers that I don't wanna find

I got up and I saw my own reflection

I hate what I see 'cause I need perfection

I wish I wasn't so ashamed of who I am

I wish I could forgive myself but I can't

The days drag on and the years go by fast

I'm chasing down my future while caught up in the past

The colors are faded

And my heart is jaded

Can I just fall apart tonight?

'Cause I don't think that I can keep up the fight

I've been trying to be strong for you

All this time but I can't hold on for long

So can I just fall apart tonight?

I don't think that I can carry on

So can I just fall apart tonight?

I wake up every morning feeling so burnt out

But nobody knows what I'm talking about

I barely feel alive I'm so empty inside

A dying soul with no reason to try

They tell me that someday I'll feel better

I've fought for so long I dont think I'll ever

Sometimes it hits me and I don't know why

I'm falling in a hole and I'm losing my mind

The colors are faded

And my heart is jaded

Can I just fall apart tonight?

'Cause I don't think that I can keep up the fight

I've been trying to be strong for you

All this time but I can't hold on for long

So can I just fall apart tonight?

I don't think that I can carry on

So can I just fall apart tonight?

I wanna tell a friend what I'm going through

I need to let it out but I'm afraid to

They never seem to act like they care

When I need a friend I don't see them anywhere

I bet they wouldn't notice if I disappeared

They'll find somebody else like I was never here

And they're never reaching out or asking me how I am

Maybe it's because they just don't wanna know

Maybe it's because they just don't wanna know

Well maybe it's because they just don't wanna know

So I guess I'll just have to suffer alone

Can I just fall apart tonight?

'Cause I don't see why I should keep up the fight

I just wanted to be strong for you

All this time but I won't hold on for long

So can I just give it up tonight?

I don't really want to carry on

And I don't want to go on no more tonight

So then I'll just fall apart alone tonight

I'll just end the fight for good tonight

They're never reaching out or asking me how I am

Maybe it's because they just don't wanna know

Maybe I'm better off leaving the world...