Maybe If Lyrics

I always see my friends they look so happy and

I wish I could be just like them you see

But I ruin every good moment I have

By being sad it makes me mad

I tell myself I won't go down that road again

But I can hear the whispers rushing through my head

"Even when you're gone life will carry on

Maybe you should just give up"

"Alex can you pull yourself together?

You know you can't just live like this forever"

A thousand pieces of me on the ground

I'm broken and I'm always looking down

Maybe if I pretend that I'm okay

All these horrible thoughts will just leave my brain

Maybe if I pretend that it isn't real

I won't feel any pain, and I'll start to heal

If I hide away, I will be okay

I'm afraid of letting people in my life

'Cause my true colors will illuminate the room

And I promise you it's not a pretty sight

There is a reason I always hide

I almost don't want myself getting too close to anyone

'Cause I know that someday in the future they will be gone

Now every time I see a breath of life all that I think about

Is how one day they'll have to die in front of my eyes

So maybe if I just sequester myself inside of a bubble

Then no one will ever leave me hurt me or die on me

Then I will no longer have to fear the pain grieving will bring

'Cause I would have nobody left to lose, no one except myself

"Alex can you pull yourself together?

You know you can't just live like this forever"

A thousand pieces of me on the ground

I'm broken and I'm always looking down

Maybe if I pretend that I'm okay

All these horrible thoughts will just leave my brain

Maybe if I pretend that it isn't real

I won't feel any pain, and I'll start to heal

Maybe if I avoid knowing anyone

I will not have to grieve when they are gone

Maybe if I just run without looking back

All my problems and fears will fade into black

If I hide away, I will be okay

All my friends they secretly hate who I am

After all, why would anyone be my friend?

All my friends they secretly hate who I am

After all, why would anyone be my friend?

All my friends they secretly hate who I am

After all, why would anyone be my friend?

All my friends they secretly hate who I am

After all, why would anyone be my friend?

Maybe if I pretend that I'm okay

All these horrible thoughts will just leave my brain

Maybe if I pretend that it isn't real

I won't feel any pain, and I'll start to heal

Maybe if I avoid knowing anyone

I will not have to grieve when they are gone

Maybe if I just run without looking back

All my problems and fears will fade into black

I almost don't want myself getting too close to anyone (If I hide away)

'Cause I know that someday in the future they will be gone (I will be okay)

Now every time I see a breath of life all that I think about

Is how one day they'll have to die in front of my eyes

So maybe if I just sequester myself inside of a bubble

Then no one will ever leave me hurt me or die on me

Then I will no longer have to fear the pain grieving will bring

'Cause I would have nobody left to lose, no one except myself

All my friends they secretly hate who I am

After all, why would anyone be my friend?

All my friends they secretly hate who I am

After all, why would anyone be my friend?

All my friends they secretly hate who I am

After all, why would anyone be my friend?

Do you hate who I am?

'Cause I need a friend

I hate who I am