Music For Ghosts Lyrics

I've spent a month sitting alone in my bedroom

And biting my nails to the quick

Self pity so palpable, God I'm so sorry, I know I'm no fun when I'm sick

Then words like a dirge come out, droning and drawling

I'm scared that I'll push you away

I'm sorry I made say over and over and over and over you'll stay

Someday before the city floods I'll learn to be silent and still

Soft and serene like some lost ghibli scene, I have just got to find the right pill

And I will take your hand and we will watch the sun sink past the hills

Our sorrows so small til the sea takes us all

But at least we'll die feeling fulfilled

I know I'm a creature of flesh and of blood, and things cannot just stay the same

But God, if I could I'd abandon this brine be a being of melodyne, aspartame

Aritificial, but mine, not this body like turpentine, designed for their pleasure, their joy

A solvent for sorrows, a thing to be borrowed, some cracked uncontrollable toy

Someday before the city floods I'll leave these small devils behind

Though I didn't want them they haunt me and cling to the leg of my jeans while they cry

I'll feed them rusks and pablum, sing soft lullabies til they sleep

Then I will keep quiet and turn out the lights and I'll pray they're not dreaming of me

I swear before the city floods that

I'll do whatever it takes

Show all the right parts of me, harness my artistry, monetize all my mistakes

I'll show them that I'm trying that I haven't just lied through my teeth

And bask in the glory of telling my stories, the comfort of being believed