Can I Leave Yet? Lyrics

Can I leave yet

Can I leave yet

Why would I bother to go making friends

When soon I'll be leaving and all this will end

Truth is, I needed a total reset

But what I received was a social recession

Then a depression

Then I suppress it

I wanna talk but I'm scared of rejection

Or worse yet, I think that I'm finally accepted

Then move and conclude it delusional connection

I learned my lesson

Gotta earn my friendship

I'm alone by principle

Cause I know that love's conditional

That's why I left all me exes

Cause I know real love is selfless

Like, why if I'm so zealous

Will they make no concessions

Am I not worth the effort

Am I not worth the stresses

Am I not worth the help or

Are you just hurt, defensive

So either I only make friends

With horribly damaged people

Or I'm the issue and statistically that is more feasible

Can I leave yet

Do you wanna be friends

No

Do you wanna be friends

No

Do you wanna be

No

Sorry for asking.

Keep my head up 'cause Momma says

Run the race and I'll find my friends

I know it's true that God has plans

But it's hard to see when I'm in the mess

Someone told me I'm mysterious

People wanna know me but I'm so removed

I said, homie you must be delirious

There would be a sign if that was true

There would be a hint

There would be a clue

But I'm serious that they do exclude

And I got the proof

Cause the person that said that blocked me and said it's destiny

Said it's best for me

Said if she didn't do it

I would be blocking her

I guess that we were never friends or anything

But I'll run on

Do my best to run strong

Do my best to come 'cross

As a guy that's caring, warm, of a soft heart

But that's the hard part

Opening up

After being hurt

With my heart guarded

Can I leave yet