Livin' On The Edge Lyrics

Searching

Through the vision

I'm dreaming

In mental spinning

I'm reflecting in the mirror

Expecting to see

A winning

I been sinning

So I pray for

Forgiveness

For self and kin

And all the time

I gotta pray

In no matter

Of how I'm winning

Searching through the

Valley of darkness

Inside my soul

And know the devils Working hard

To be keeping me

From my goal

My life is moving fast

And I'm trying to take it Slow

But everyday is like a marathon

Making it as I go

Lately I been feeling

Like I'm

Out of

My body

And that this earth

Is just a plain

For all our

Pain and our

Sobbing

I got these scars

Inside my soul

Internally

In the stopping

Of all the peace

I gotta see

Its cuz

The vision is cloudy

I'm developing

And finding out

My place in this planet

Through all my dreams

And all the schemes

That Ive been trying

To manage

I gotta put it down

And focus

On the hurt

Of my baggage

And though I'm praying to my God

I still been feeling

In famished

I dont understand

The plan

Thats in the point

Of this damage

Like maybe

I've been off my pivot

And hes letting me have it

I pray to Jesus

That I feel a honest heal

Of this damage

But yet

I sit inside my sorrows

With my pain

Thats been handed

I been broken

Like I'm never even living

With bruises

So maybe God dont really Care

And hes just picking and choosing

Cuz if he really wanted me

To be avoiding depressed

Then I'd expect

That I'd be stronger

In this hard of a test

And I'd expect

That I'd be over all the Mental

Destruction

While I been living half a Decade

In depression and rubbish

Do I even really matter

In this life full of nothing

God I wonder

Cuz I'm hoping

You'll be telling me Something

When I ask for some assistance

They're confused in a Bunch

Other people tell me

I just aint

Doing enough

Even through all this Depression

I'm still living with love

Maybe this is all a test

And youre just making me Tough

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

I'm dreaming in my bed

And I'm backing up out

The pest

A hunder thousand dollars

Aint worth it

If I'm a mess

I'm hoping for a change

In the minute

That I Impress

And now I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm Finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

I'm dreaming in my bed

And I'm backing up out

The pest

A hunder thousand dollars

Aint worth it

If I'm a mess

I'm hoping for a change

In the minute

That I Impress

And now I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm Finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

I'm dreaming in my bed

And I'm backing up out

The pest

A hunder thousand dollars

Aint worth it

If I'm a mess

I'm hoping for a change

In the minute

That I Impress

And now I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm Finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

I'm dreaming in my bed

And I'm backing up out

The pest

A hunder thousand dollars

Aint worth it

If I'm a mess

I'm hoping for a change

In the minute

That I Impress

And now I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm Finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm

Tryna put an end

To the

Generational curses

I been working

And I'm learning

Developing in my earning

In my service

I been hurting

But steady

I make it work

And in assurance

I have heard

That I gotta be on alert

Praying to my God

And they tell me

That he is here with me

But clearly

I been missing

The message

That still is dear to me

I'm painting

Out this picture

Of poetry

So you know to see

The struggle I been facing

And lacking

Inside my focusing

Wondering

If I should be claiming

This

Christianity

Cuz maybe I'm delusional

Sticking inside a

Fantasy

Lately I believe in you

Less than I ever have Before

Cuz even when I did

It was only because I can't Ignore

My saddened core

God I'm not using you

For a open door

But truthfully I'm Wondering

What are you really hoping for

What do you expect from a Brother

Thats holding open soars

And falling on his face

Everyday

That hes gotta open doors

Honestly

I question

If I'm really your child

And through this

Struggle in my heart

We haven't talked

For awhile

And I've been living

On the edge

Maybe this is all a dream

And I'm just facing the buzz

Maybe this is all my fault

and I'm just

Taking too much

Maybe I'm just really Paranoid

And lacking in trust

Maybe I'm just really hateful

In this life full of rough

Maybe I'm just overthinking

And my mind

Is my cuffs

I been praying that I make It

Through this path

While I'm patient and Everyday

I gotta wait

Until the timing is

Fated

Even through all of my struggle

Ill be making it

Stated

Ill be okay

And though I'm breaking

Ill be fighting with Satan

And so I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

I'm dreaming in my bed

And I'm backing up out

The pest

A hunder thousand dollars

Aint worth it

If I'm a mess

I'm hoping for a change

In the minute

That I Impress

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm Finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

I'm dreaming in my bed

And I'm backing up out

The pest

A hunder thousand dollars

Aint worth it

If I'm a mess

I'm hoping for a change

In the minute

That I Impress

And now I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm Finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

I'm dreaming in my bed

And I'm backing up out

The pest

A hunder thousand dollars

Aint worth it

If I'm a mess

I'm hoping for a change

In the minute

That I Impress

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm Finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

I'm dreaming in my bed

And I'm backing up out

The pest

A hunder thousand dollars

Aint worth it

If I'm a mess

I'm hoping for a change

In the minute

That I Impress

And now I'm

Living on the edge

Depicting out the best

Avoiding out the physical

Focusing on the heart

Theyre hoping that I'm Finished

Ive only

Been at the start

My open minded passion

Is keeping me out the dark

But yet I'm