THE HARDEST THING Lyrics

I still can't believe it

'Cause everything in me thought you were the one

And we had our problems just like everybody does

But I believed it was love, and that's why we kept going, yeah

Everything piled up until you had enough, I guess

And then you were gone

A mistake never made someone leave my life like you decided to

So, it was hard moving on, man

I'll just say it, I made a decision

I struggled with things, I'm ashamed to admit it

I wrote a whole song 'bout myself and those sins

If you need a reminder, go listen to it

But you already knew 'bout that trauma

You saw me cry as I told you 'bout all that I did

That night in your car, looked me dead in the eye

Told me it was alright and you'd stay 'til the end

The words that are burned in my head are the

Ones you'd be next to my side 'til we're grey and we're older

Fast forward, months later, across from that table

I look in your eyes, and they're saying it's over

And hearing you say you don't trust me no more

Hit me harder than anything ever before

That's a memory I wish that I could forget

But I can't, I just try to ignore it

Your greatest fear, it became my reality

Having to deal with the pain of someone who you

Gave all your love and affection to choosing to give it up

Feels like your losing yourself

I'm ashamed of the way that I acted because of the pain that I felt

And I'm sorry for what I did as a result of it

Scared you to death

I just want you to know I was going through hell

If love never fails, then tell me, please, what was that?

After all we felt, I just can't see why it had

To end like that and hurt so bad

And make me act so dumb

Just know, that letting you go was the hardest thing I've ever done

I don't know if you know this, but incase you don't

Man, I went to a dark place

What I didn't expect was for it to lead me to

Some of my hardest and worst days

I could go on for hours and hours

And try to explain all the hurt and ungodly pain

But instead I'ma give you a glimpse inside this mind of mine

That thought I had lost everything, yeah

It's crazy how pain has its own way of changing you

Into someone that you're not

I went from the happiest person on earth

To constantly having suicidal thoughts

And I passed you one night

Thought about pushing the gas and just landing wherever

Thought it might be better for everyone if I was gone

But I thank God each day that Mom answered that call

It was a really hard couple of months

Remember us talking 'bout tying the knot?

And you taking my last name? I guess plans change

You could say that the Lord really taught me

Not to get caught in all of the wrong things

Especially those that are leading me

From being all that I could be and not bringing

Me any closer to God, man

I'm scared about falling in love again

Learning to trust again, doing too much again

Then it all being for nothing and just blowing up again

Then overthinking whether I'm enough again

I lost my mind over someone who didn't mind losing me

But it was worth it, 'cause it led me here

Closer to God than I've ever been

Some days I just still can't believe it though

If love never fails, then tell me, please, what was that?

After all we felt, I just can't see why it had

To end like that and hurt so bad

And make me act so dumb

Just know, that letting you go was the hardest thing I've ever done

Despite all the hurt that we caused for each other

I don't regret all that we had

I regret how I acted afterwards

It was uncalled for, and I'm sorry for that

But letting go of you meant letting go of part of me

And that was incredibly hard

I was hurting, and I wanted you to see it

That's the really ugly part

I'm still not sure if love is what it really was

Or just simply lust

Or if we got together, yeah, just because

It's confusing, huh? But what's done is done

But I pray for you, hope you find love again

Hope you're pursuing the Lord every chance you get

Hope that you're able one day to forgive all my faults

And I hope that you know that I wish you the best