Better off, Pt. 2 Lyrics

Look

Aye

Man what a funny thing

This life that I been livin' I'm still in the ring

You know I won't go down without a fight

Been battered, beaten, bruised and believe me when I say that I've lost

But nothing grand enough to keep me down, I'm tryna be the boss

Overindulgence in everything I know that's bad for me

Cause momma wasn't there for me but dad knew that he had to be

Unfortunately I had to accept my sad reality that momma left but dadda like to fight when half his glass empty

Know he prolly meant well

But intentions fade to black when he's the reason that you in hell

Still tryna find my way back

He prolly gon' be mad as hell if he ever hears this track

I love you dad but we both know the problems that you have

You been disconnected

I'm tryin' hard to find a reason but this shit to hectic

He broke my nose in 3 places cause he misdirected

Cause he ain't have no one to teach him better

No correction as a grown man, no wonder why you bitter

0 for 3 so I missed out my shoulda-coulda-woulda life

Dark as hell in mine because his life been lackin' any light

Toxic masculinity, "don't like what I say then we fight"

Say you understand me but can't fathom that I might be right

God forbid it

Not a chance that I could know some shit

"I'm 49 years old Zac, I promised that I've lived through it"

Forgettin' that times on the move, and maybe things are different now, and maybe I don't want your life, and maybe I figured it out

I had to make a sacrifice, I'm tryna heal a bit

Scared to put you in a song cause I know you gon' throw a fit

What a shitty position, dawg, I can't even exercise the trauma that you out me through

Cause I know it's shit you won't like

Had enough I'm tired of not speakin' bout it

All because I know that you gon' hate me I don't even doubt it

Have another drink homie it's clear that you can't live without it

Had to make my peace I'm broken now all because you allowed it

And now I gotta watch myself cause both my parent's addicts

My dad he won't admit it yeah he'll take it to his casket

So I can't let myself drink too much or bad things start to happen and I can't experiment with drugs I seen my mom relapsin'

Now momma ain't been perfect either

Caught up in the clutches of that fetty, so I'm losin' sleep there's so much I'm regrettin'

Consumed with tryna show her bout what coulda been, what woulda been

But she just loved that needle dawg, I couldn't stand to let her in

Caught up in a life of sin and blame it on abandonment at some point though you gotta know

That you the only catalyst

You the reason that you failin'

You the reason, now we know

You the reason I can't love you cause I gave up all my hope

Runnin' from myself because of problems that been passed down

No wonder why I can't trust, no wonder I can't love now

Still tryna fit the pieces of this puzzle that been broke down

I'm pretty sure I got some missin' how's this sposed' to go down?

Scared that I keep missin' out cause every time I look around

I get a quick reminder that the life I live ain't normal now

Tryna smile, don't know how so I decide to look down

Cause at least if my head hangin' low y'all can't pretend y'all care now