Mother I Lyrics

The doctor mumbles he seems bored

Guess my worst fear is just a chore

Deep breath in he probes inside

Who's the brave face for

Who's by my side

Unless I'm not alone

And that's just why I came

If someone made a home of me

Then I believe

I owe them a name

So hey God if you're up there

Guess this proves that you're a man

Don't think that you would send this

If you really understand

On the outside made me soft

A place for all to rest their heads

But inside you made me empty hard

My belly full of lead

Cuz somehow Motherhood's

The only thing I've known for sure

So what is left

If Mother's not for sure anymore

Please Doctor

Cut me open

Scoop out all that's in the way

Oh Doctor will you hollow me?

Make room for them to stay

He seems scared to voice the news

As if I haven't guessed for years

"God just built you back-wards girl

But otherwise

You're in the clear"

"Aren't you relieved?" he says

"Now you're free another day"

So flippant

As if Mother weren't the very first word

I ever learned to say

So hey God if you're up there

Guess this proves that you're a man

Don't think that you'd have made me this

If you really understand

On the outside

I am soft

A place for all to rest their heads

But inside you made me empty hard

My belly full of lead

Cuz somehow Motherhood's

The only thing I've known for sure

So what is left

If Mother's not for sure anymore

Please Mother

Cut me open

Scoop out all that's in the way

Oh Mother will you hollow me?

Make room for them to stay

Cuz how can I just let it go?

I'm only 23

That's too damn young to have to come

To terms with what this means

I'll finally grow up

Now that I'm choking on the dust

And to survive

I'll shrug it off

I'll smile

I'll adjust

I'll tuck the dream of you away

Forever or for now

You were just make believe

A fairytale anyhow

This sense of unborn purpose

It belongs up on the shelf

But now that you're gone

I find that I am just a child myself

So hey God if you're up there

Please take away this lot

I know I haven't earned it

But they still deserve a shot

On the outside I will carry on

Keep breathing raise my head

But inside I'm slowly dying

From my belly full of lead

'Cuz Mother was the only thing

I've ever known for sure

So what is left of me

If I can't be a Mother anymore

Please someone

Cut me open

Scoop out all that's in the way

Oh Mother you have hollowed me

Make room for me to stay

Oh Mother God can you hear me?

Oh Mother can you hear me God?

Mother

Can you hear me?

Mother can you hear me… god...