Soar & Cry Lyrics

You just wanted the high

You just wanted the high, high

You just wanted the high

You just wanted the high, high

You said I'm too special to you

But made me feel like I'm an oddity that would never fit you

And then you said, you don't know what to do

So we continued to screw

You said I'm pretty and cute

But yet I feel that I don't ever suit

You well enough

You're afraid and unaware of what you're facing

You never thought you might

(What a fright)

And now you don't think you're able to

I was amazing

(Cause I loved you)

It felt like it's some kinda plague

It was like a dream

But all of a sudden I knew I'm awake

It hurts, it burns, and it turns me upside down

And then my heart unfurls

As I cry with no sound

I still control my shakes

But every minute it takes

Is a torture to me

You talk but every time you speak

I gotta feeling you lie to me

So my heart gets bleak

Every time, every time

I've buried myself inside

And faced everything with eyes open wide

Yet it took too much to reach the balance

I tried

Though too fucked up with lies

Though conditioned to die

I got better in my head

And much more cynical in bed

I've lost all my beliefs and choked on all of my dreams

Cause in truth nothing is really what it seems

I belied myself so that I could hold on

Now take a one good look at what you've done to me!

Come on!

Now, I can fly cause I can see why

You made me feel this way

Now I can fly cause now I know why

You hurt me so much that I wanted to die

Now I can fly cause I can see why

I let myself get drawn into a lie

Now I can fly cause now I know why

I needed validation, your ego needed the high

Now, I can fly cause I can see why

You made me feel this way

Now I can fly cause now I know why

I've been in so much pain and wanted to die

Now I can fly cause I can see why

I let myself get hooked on a lie

Now I can fly cause now I know why

I gave you my heart but you just wanted the high

You just wanted the high

You just wanted the high, high

You never met anyone like me

That's what you told me when love-bombing me extensively

You didn't know what to expect

Oh, please! You knew what you'd get

If only you wanted to

Know the person you met

I thought, "God gave me you, god gave you me

But you're a human so you can't take it easily"

I was unsure but now I know what I've been

Just an exotic sex toy, a codependent plaything

Did you wanna take my life?

I just wanted to know what for did I strive

For you, for me, for us, for god's sake?

You tasted and smelled like my destiny and it made my heart ache

You asked me why was I by your side

Why would I confide

I couldn't explain

I guess, because it was so self-defeatingly alright

To pick a guy who couldn't love me back

And acted like a self-centered child

You never believed me

So fucking scared to believe me

You were so insecure but couldn't really leave me

It's all because I was such an awesome supply

Took me forever to figure out why

I needed validation

You needed the high

On the altar of your ego I prostituted mine

I reveled in the darkness and self-destructive pain

Until I hit rock bottom and couldn't do it again

You said I was too special to you

So I took it for love and didn't know what to do

And then you made me soar and cry, and cry

The more we slept together the more I felt like I died

But now, you're gone for good

And it's been quite a while

So rest in peace, what had to happen happened

It was immature, infantile

We gave our demons power

Indulging one another