Bitch, Please! Lyrics

So many times, you told me I am the One

And I believed your love-bombing for fear of staying alone

So many times, I would be dreading a backstab

Bitch, please! I'd be the one setting myself up for that kinda crap

So many eyes. Bits of heaven scattered among animals

And beasts, I wasn't the least of them. I never realized

So many lies. The sick share of betrayal on a trail

Of loneliness in a love-sabotaging paradise

So many lips. Abandonment scars within

Creeping under slutty makeup and crawling under the skin

So many hands. Acting cool like I'm Jezebel

Accepting the unacceptable becoming more expendable

So many nights. The numbing out through self-negligence

Riding the carousel through dissociative emptiness

The dark bitch inside, a validation-seeking

Masochistic sex slave codependent parasite

Easy to be a victim

In an abusive system

But it's not bona fide

The dark bitch knows it inside and laughs

I've been the self-indulgent

Pleaser who got divergent

But I have to admit

The bitch inside got a kick out of

Being a savior no one ever asked for

A martyr, a villain, a saint, and a whore

The bitch had no boundaries, I should've known

A "yes" isn't a "yes" when there isn't a "no"

The world wasn't darker but I have been sick

Neglected, self-punishing, desperate, and weak

The bitch is a fatalist cynical whore

And I have been her, she's not me anymore

So many times, I checked my heart for some hope

But there was nothing but anger and pain at the end of the rope

Lost in the skies, I felt like I wanted to scream

Unrealistic expectations, depressed and foggy within

So many eyes. I pondered who'd be the last

Meanwhile, I didn't see a future and kept reliving the past

So many lies. I should've known it's really nothing new

Just coping and coping unable to see it all through

I didn't need to run and rinse and repeat

The same vicious cycle pulling the rug from under my feet

I didn't want to be a mistress or goddess

For a white knight in a semi-open-fuckship with a bonus

I thought I'd drowned the past, the pain and neglect

'Cause I was trying and trying, and trying, trying to forget

The dark bitch inside would laugh and flip the script

Self-defeating choices, stuck with fucked up guys, then left behind

Easy to be a victim

In an abusive system

But it's not bona fide

The dark bitch knows it inside and laughs

I've been the self-indulgent

Pleaser who got divergent

But I have to admit

The bitch inside got a kick out of

Being a savior no one ever asked for

A martyr, a villain, a saint, and a whore

The bitch had no boundaries, I should've known

A "yes" isn't a "yes" when there isn't a "no"

The world wasn't darker but I have been sick

Neglected, self-punishing, desperate, and weak

The bitch is a fatalist cynical whore

And I have been her, she's not me anymore

Dead and gone

And I have been her

Dead and gone

She's not me anymore

Dead and gone

And I have been her

Dead and gone

She's not me anymore

Dead and gone

I have to admit I've been her

Dead and gone

But she's not me anymore

Dead and gone

I used to love being her

Dead and gone

She's not me anymore

I have been a savior no one ever asked for

A martyr, a villain, a saint, and a whore

The bitch had no boundaries, I should've known

A "yes" isn't a "yes" when there isn't a "no"

The world wasn't darker but I have been sick

Neglected, self-punishing, desperate, and weak

The bitch was a self-loathing cynical whore

And I have been her, she's not me anymore

I have been a savior no one ever asked for

A martyr, a villain, a saint, and a whore

The bitch had no boundaries, I should've known

A "yes" isn't a "yes" when there isn't a "no"

The world wasn't darker but I have been sick

Neglected, self-punishing, desperate, and weak

The bitch was a fatalist cynical whore

And I have been her, she's not me anymore

Shame, pain

It seemed like there's no way out

For the fatalist cynical pessimist clinical dark suicidal self-loathing whore

Shame, pain

Shame, pain

The only way is through the darkness

Save the child and escape the madness

Shame, pain

It seemed like there's no way out

For the fatalist cynical pessimist clinical dark suicidal self-loathing whore

Shame, pain

Shame, pain

That bitch was a child with nothing to live for

And I have been her but not anymore