Chasing Clouds Lyrics

So tell me, it's been 14 years already, and it's hard to believe you're still here

I mean, how are you coping, are you getting through the days at least

Talk to me dude, please

I'm, chasing clouds

Yeah I'm, not coming down

I woke up from a coma

Just staring at the white walls

Then someone comes over

He's awake, I hear the nurse call

Do you know where you are

I'm in hospital clearly

Do you know what happened

I think I was in a car accident

Yeah that's right, you're okay now though

How could you say that? I know I was trapped yelling for help in the back..shh

Try and keep calm you don't wanna work yourself up too much

It's okay we've got you some drugs to help that pain fade away

It's not working I'm still in pain

Okay let's double it and see

It's not getting any better please help me

This is all we can do, triple it, way more than you should be on at 16

I'm still in so much pain what do I do, what do I do

I'm sorry but you're just going to have to push through

I'm, chasing clouds

Yeah I'm, not coming down

After a few months of this dosage, high levels of OxyContin

I started to lose my focus, developed the habit, always wanna be loaded

Years later and a few drinks down, a loaded bowl just got passed around

I light it up and I'm smoking, drinking with codeine, now I'm just floating

My nights repeat over and over

I wake up and I'm barely ever sober

Cold sweats, looking over my shoulder

Now that I'm older still wishing for that coma

I just wish that I could go back

Instead I drink until I fade to black

I take some pills and hit the sack

Hoping that I'll go to sleep and never come back yeah

They say it is what it is

That's cruel I was just a kid

It took my hope, my innocence

My will to live and now I'm doomed to sin

I gotta chase that high again

I wanna to fly again, now I gotta get it anyway I can

I'm addicted to almost everything

Even all this pain I'm in

Outta body

Suffering

Paranoia

Faulty limb

I'm addicted to, chasing clouds

Addicted to, drowning out

The painful thoughts and memories

PTSD is my enemy

There's no escaping this for me

I'm high

So please let me dream

I'm, chasing clouds

Yeah I'm, not coming down

I woke up again it's not a dream

This really happened to me

Stuck, pinned by a tree only took a couple of hours to set me free

Bleeding profusely from my wounds

All accounts I should have been doomed

I should have been pushing up Daisy's

How I'm alive is truely amazing

They kept me alive somehow

Life of pain and traumas no doubt

That's why I'm writing my music

Only thing that helps me get through that bullshit

I wanna a way out of this place

That's why I'm chasing these clouds

I'm fill with traumas and doubts

Music is my only way out

I'm, chasing clouds

Yeah I'm, not coming down

I'm not coming down