Heaven's Gate Lyrics

I created those around me

Though I don't know which is worse

Cause playing god is funny

Till you have to choose who's dying first

I became the thing I feared

Taking their lives in my hand

My innocence had consequences

That I still don't understand

I was told that I was vital in the

Plan to save my life

So I promised mine in hopes

I'd be the one holding the knife

Our bodies were the vehicle

Transporters of the soul

I was young and bold and stupid

In a six foot self-dug hole

Was I the only one to question

Anything they said?

I take it back I'll follow

Till I fly or till I'm dead

My immortal evolutionary traits

Are still intact

I am unapologetic

For the sympathy I lacked

I left my body back in

California cause I'm weak

Overdosed on phenobarbital

It's part of my mystique

So in '97 I gave up my future

I'd been raised

To reject my human nature

In the hopes that I'd be praised

I thought SOS meant save our souls

Instead it meant jack shit

Cause nobody came to help me

When I told myself I'd quit

I trusted blindly was it wrong

For me to latch on tight?

Cause I didn't realise nettles stung

And apples weren't all white

Ignorance is bliss or maybe

Ignorance is bait

Cause I didn't deserve heaven

But I'm standing at its gate

Was I the only one to question

Anything they said?

I take it back

I'll follow till I fly or till I'm dead

My immortal evolutionary traits

Are still intact

I am unapologetic

For the empathy I lacked

I left my body back in Cali

I'm not bothered to return

The taste of apple sauce

And vodka aren't my main concerns

Giving up is easy

When the default's to survive

Cause a better life will only cost

Three quarters and a five

I'll meet you in the promised

Paradise we often preach

So I'd hope for liberation

But that isn't what we teach

My immortal evolutionary traits

Are still intact

I am unapologetic

For the apathy I lacked

I left my body back in

San Diego, Santa Fe

They could tell me fucking nonsense

With the knowledge I'd obey