medicine Lyrics

I woke up still missing the summer

Not the one we spent each second wrapped up in each other

The one that I spent numb and running trying to discover

If I had run right out the door and right into another

Wall

Spending all the days and weeks waiting for you to call

Knowing I won't be the first one to drop the ball

Staring at the ceiling, barely breathe or sleep at all

Counting down the days until the fall

You left me way too slow

It's not my fault you can't just let me go

Think I'm addicted to the thrill of second chances

Apathetic understanding of a cycle I got handed

Can't find a reason to excuse a true unhanding

Wondering if I should plan it

You and I both left me stranded

I've got pills now that the doctor hesitated

Giving me but I need something to help stop the shaking

Cause lately you've been finding every way to complain

You're insane

And I hate how you're the reason for the medicine I'm taking

But I won't ever let you know about

All the little thoughts of mine that fill me up with doubt

They'll show up when you're refusing to open up your mouth

You're using me and I don't know how I'm gonna walk out

Looking back hits so sad

Thinking that I really needed you so bad

Shaking from you screaming saying you're so mad

I'm the fucking worst and you're the best I'll ever have

You left me way too slow

It's not my fault you can't just let me go

Think I'm addicted to the thrill of second chances

Apathetic understanding of a cycle I got handed

Can't find a reason to excuse a true unhanding

Wondering if I should plan it

You and I both left me stranded

Left me way too slow

It's not my fault you can't just let me go