the violent cracking of an egg Lyrics

Sorry sorry sorry words cannot express the guilt I feel

Or my love for you because I still want to kill myself

It's ok, I don't have a plan for action or anything

Is what I will tell my therapist

That is a lie

Award winning smily eyes

And I feel like not killing myself is as hard as killing myself in a fucked up way

The scariest place is my fucked up brain

I never thought that I could live without you

I tried to tell you so many times.

I couldn't share these words

Because I'm a fucking coward

This was once a love song, now it's just a note I'll never send

I am broken

I loved our weird fucking life and our life of queer sharing

Standing so deep in the lake I just want to drown

You pulled me out alive

Pressure to make myself small

Dig out princess tumor with a plastic butter knife

I couldn't stand up

I couldn't breathe

I was fucking dying and you stayed and cried with me

But this time when I cry it's because I feel the new fucked up that will haunt my whole life

Trying to deal with this new guilt

But every word is true

I'm saying sorry to you

So I just want to apologize