gone for now Lyrics

Talk with myself as I'm walking down

This long empty road

I know that we're now all grown

I'll find my Soul so I'm gone for now

I work like a beast but still I never reach the level I wanna be at

My standard an unobtainable feat a special form of greed and I need that

I gotta take the lead thats what I always preach like a priestess

But I know it eats me up with every heartbeat I just hope I can recollect all my pieces

Before it's late to do that

Before I become a victim of my own movement

Maybe my friends are right when they say I should cool it

Maybe I should take a break and throw the duces

But this is the only thing that didn't make me feel useless

So what should I do else

This is the only thing that ever felt

Right so I just have to hope it sells

Because I have the intel

That every other job would make my life miserable

Every other way wouldn't make me fell liberal

That's why I grind through these difficult

Times and try to craft out every syllable

And people tell me the result of it is great but that's something I can't see

I just continue to break me as I walk over myself like a stampede

I wonder if ever will be able to rate or stand me

Talk with myself as I'm walking down

This long empty road

I know that we're now all grown

I'll find my Soul so I'm gone for now

When I started this it wasn't because of fame and still it ain't I just wanna feel heard and seen

I just wanna have a place where I can let go all the weights I found it in every verse and scheme

But the longer I'm in the game the less it helps to keep me sane and it hurts to be

In the spot where each record made gives you less the feeling of being great, it's something I personally

Struggle with a lot

Struggle with those thoughts

That downplay all of my progress

I just have to keep my focus

Got to remember the process

That led me to here from the point where I was as cold as

Frozen

Closing the book on that chapter

But I keep it in my head as a lecture

To myself whenever

I put myself again under challenger deep level pressure

And no matter what will come I will make it through

I can't die I couldn't do that to my family or my crew

It's just hard to remember when all of it hits you right out of the blue

So I ask you for this one favor give me a little more time to clear my mind and find all the clues to the thruth