ruining relationships one letter at a time Lyrics

I've got my head in my hands

On the edge of my bed for hours

Contemplating lives

Contemplating ours

I thought it was unconditional love

But it turns conditional when you put a price tag on hugs

With vitriol

The centerfold

The creased response

The paper you typed up

Proofread, printed with thought

That a punishment on an adult

With a well paying job

Would be to tax him for seeing family when he wants

I need help, I think

Emotional shrink

You called me wretched

A lemming

A sniveling dog

Putrid as if this was a direct response

To something you did while bringing me up

A disrespect against you and not me doing what I want

You've got this fucked ideal of me as if I'm a scared little kid

As if me being compliant made me perfect

As if the time I spent growing up never mattered

As if my emotions should stay crumpled and folded

And I don't think that you ever cared

You were never there

And I was never on your mind

It wasn't fair

And you never acknowledged our accomplishments

And you never acknowledged our change

You were complicit in the abuse in the house

You say you never saw but I saw you looking away

You were complicit in destroying our relationship

Instead of being patient and giving me constructive complaints

I need help, I think

Emotional shrink