Dear Diary, Last Entry Lyrics

I'm getting tired of fighting the worst days

I'm uninspired and holding a straight face

A wasted decade maintaining a safe space

Sitting around just waiting for first place

I'm sure you've noticed I'm not in the best mood

It's been a while and I'm sure that you're feeling it too

And it's new, and I know that you know that

But it's true that I'm slow in the moment

It's just begun and I'm stuck in the onset

I wanna run, but I can't even walk yet

Help me understand

I only want to understand

Just tell me you

I wanna know, I wanna know

The way you think this year will go

It's never been a fashion show

You know that's only when your eyes are closed

You're singing "la la la" with your head in the clouds

While we're waiting around for you to come back down, so you

I wanna know, I wanna know

The way you think this year will go

I understand that you have to start somewhere

I'm in between comprehending and "not fair"

Every day gone by

Every grey blue sky

is a sign to remind me I'm not there

Baby, how long can you stand me

Letting down my friends and family?

Help me understand

I only want to understand

Just tell me you

I wanna know, I wanna know

The way you think this year will go

It's never been a fashion show

You know that's only when your eyes are closed

You're singing "la la la" with your head in the clouds

While we're waiting around for you to come back down, so you

I wanna know, I wanna know

The way you think this year will go

I'm in your headphones wondering

why I'm na na, na na, na not ready to go

A stumbling mess of emotion

I'm na na na na, na not ready to show

I thought I saved us last time

but purpose over happiness is fine

Help me understand

I only ever want to know

I wanna know, I wanna know

The way you think this year will go

It's never been a fashion show

You know that's only when your eyes are closed

You're singing "la la la" with your head in the clouds

While we're waiting around for you to come back down, so you

I wanna know, I wanna know

The way you think this year will go

Oh, the way you think this year will go

I'm in your headphones wondering

why I'm na na, na na, na not ready to go

A stumbling mess of emotion

I'm na na, na na, na not ready to show

You're singing "la la la" with your head in the clouds

While we're waiting around for you to come back down, so you

I wanna know, I wanna know

The way you think this year will go