Convictions Lyrics

I'm not okay, my thoughts are drifting away

Talked to the wall for the past few months

But now even I don't got nothing to say

How you gon' do this?

Cuts deep when the truth hits

I can't walk, and you knew this

Soon I am gonna lose it

Don't worry, I've been watching my tuning

But I'm staying tuned in from the back side

Face of the brand like the mascot

That's why I'm subject to this ridicule

Came from that spot

Hiding under the cloak

Then I stepped out, found my purpose

Hiding right under the rope

And God forbid I lose sight

Cause that's how I started to choke

Immoral ideas that start as a joke

And scheming and plotting that started with notes

And dreaming of times that you cannot revoke

I'm facing consequences

Over things I can't control

Now my whole life is derailed

Over some pain that I wish you'd know

But you never told me

What was on your mind that night

In between the tears and the sea of people

I couldn't see in those lights

That's why I never let go

We had shit to sort out

Yeah, I froze up when you grabbed my hand

But I sat and thought (thawed) out

Everything that I wanted to tell you

Stay trapped inside my mind

Every word remained confined

It was you that built those walls

And it was you that drew that line, "And I'm not falling this time"

That's what I told myself right beforehand

And I still lost my mind (yeah it happened again)

I used to sit alone

Tryna put myself in a different zone

Just so you would be more accepting of me

I regret every second

I didn't need to fake nothing

Instead I should've brought up what happened that night

I hoped that it would come up in time

But I feared the outcome (feared the outcome)

Overthought everything

But you was the one who's making it sting

Cause now this is so much more than a matter of time

We don't got much left

I don't know if these signs, or lies

But both of them causing this pain in my chest

I've been losing a lot of sleep

Tryna figure out where I'm supposed to go next

You've been switching the narratives

Telling me stories

But I guess that I just ain't direct

None of that adds up to me

When I ask those walls close up to me

When I push through that blade cuts through me

Never asked for this, it's too much to me

Never wanted this for a second

You ain't never get that message

I ain't never get that check-in

From nobody else that I knew

Aside from J, the exception

I got too many questions

Need a change in perspective

I've been stuck in here stressing now, yeah