Homesick Lyrics

Look

I been tryna find a way back home

Yeah, back to the one and only place I have known

I'm caught at a road, it's too cold and too close

Now i'm in too deep, can someone save my soul, uh

Yo, already on my own

I don't know how to say what I'm thinking

It's taking a toll

All my friends have had enough and now they won't even call me

They won't pick up when the phone rings, uh

Going under, i'm anchored

Not to sink, i'm on my knees and askin' god for a favor

State of mind is always switching, now my life is in danger

This alcohol ain't doin' shit except for fuelin' my anger, damn

I ain't fuckin' going home today

Mom is sick, dad is workin', always going someplace, yeah

I don't want my family hearin' that I almost put a god damn bullet in my dome today, but

Man, I feel like going home at dark

On a trip, forever scared of all the ghosts I fought

I don't wanna be a problem but i'm drownin' underwater and they god damn wonder why I smoke a lot

Fuck

Look my bones are gettin' weak without rest

And it gets harder to speak with all the weight on my chest

I had a habit since a kid to hide to things in my head

I'm using this as an escape until I can't take a breath so

I ain't fuckin' going home today

Mom is sick, dad is workin', always going someplace, yeah

I don't want my family hearin' that I almost put a god damn bullet in my dome today, but

Man, I feel like going home at dark

On a trip, forever scared of all the ghosts I fought

I don't wanna be a problem but i'm drownin' underwater and they god damn wonder why I smoke a lot

I had a dream, I was only a freshman

When I started going numb to all the drugs and depression

Getting caught for possession

Wasn't long before the fights and all the fuckin' detention

I was hated, I was fuckin' impatient

Dad was in a different country and my mom was a patient

I had to find my own escape to get away from everything cause all the shit was in my head and I was fuckin' sedated, gone

I ain't fuckin' going home today

Mom is sick, dad is workin', always going someplace, yeah

I don't want my family hearin' that I almost put a god damn bullet in my dome today, but

Man, I feel like going home at dark

On a trip, forever scared of all the ghosts I fought

I don't wanna be a problem but i'm drownin' underwater and they god damn wonder why I smoke a lot

Fuck

Look my bones are gettin' weak without rest

And it gets harder to speak with all the weight on my chest

I had a habit since a kid to hide to things in my head

I'm using this as an escape until I can't take a breath so

I ain't fuckin' going home today

No one's home and when they are, they're always going someplace

All the blood and all the tears that i've been sweating out for years

Because i'm god damn losing all control today, but

Man i feel like going home at dark

On a trip, forever scared of all the ghosts I fought

I don't wanna be a problem but i'm drownin' underwater and they god damn wonder why I smoke a lot

I'll admit that I am scared when I wake up alone

I been abandoned for years and now I fuck up my soul

At this point i'm causing damage cause I don't know how to manage all the voices in my head

So I ain't goin' home, nah