Contemplation Lyrics

Im finally looking in the mirror at my own reflection

That's the only time that I can ever get attention

Or is it me just getting closer to my own ascension

Or is it self criticism I forgot to mention

From all the darker things I did as a teenager

Almost selling pills the image on my screensaver

Because selling drugs to me it made the dream greater

It was a silent cry for help I learned to scream later

So the ego it's just used as my armor

A mechanism that was shielding off all the karma

Just hoping that the pain wouldn't last a bit longer

And I love when people leave me at my lowest it's an honor

And I understood confusion is a part to all the stories

And I talk to myself and I even learned to ignore me

Counting the hostility

Doubting these probabilities

Y'all not fighting demons y'all fighting accountability

I'm not surprised from cries of the youth

In a world full of lies that spread faster then truths

A lot of people they ain't listening

What's the pot you wishing in

A world where these people love chaos over discipline

I'd like to think of my self as a hero

My younger self smiling through the pain where did he go

A small view of life being seen through a peep hole

That turned into a grown man drowning in his ego But

I feel I'm swimming in a ocean that is filled with sharks

I'm getting closer the abyss is looking really dark

Now I see the light the love of life is just a start

Created motivation for myself until I make a spark

Cuz me just sitting in this motherfucking basement

Won't get me no where if I'm just sitting there complacent

The mask follows everywhere no matter where his face went

It's here to take another person soul within replacements

We're all lost looking for a reason to live

Or whats the meaning of life and all the things that we did

why we never have a smile that matches when we were kids

And understanding growing up is learning how to forgive

I set my pride to the side for my own conclusion

I was convincing myself under my delusion

That I can do this by myself and have a chance at choosing

When In reality we don't know what the fuck we doing

We all guessing

We all stressing

It's all blessings

Our day we reckon

With all assumptions of what was left when

We was guessing with no answers and no telling

I've understood that all of my failures were a lessons

I had to take this route

Cuz every time he tries to speak they wanna tape his mouth

Hoping that the hate was out

And reminiscing is something I do hardly

I wanna apologize to my younger self I'm sorry