ten hours Lyrics

My hair falls out and I blame it on the bleach

Dishes fill the sink and my place is starting to reek

From the food I've forgotten

Rotten like an offering

I've been alone every single day this week

It's ten hours still til you come to set

me free

From my mind that can't be quieted

With wine and reassurances

That I will not get lost in this again

My nails chip but I paint them to hide the stains

Of nicotine addiction and my forethought lacking of

Putting down a base coat

For reds that leave me yellow

I'm touch-starved and touch-shy

Cut my hair so I couldn't hide behind it

Sometimes I can't stand it

Yet it's all that I've wanted

Big earrings and bright lipstick

But I'm still not used to drawing eyes yet

Oh, I wish I could just see me

For whatever I am authentically

Ten hours is ten lifetimes to me

And all the iterations of me still live and breathe

Like flowers in the sun we grow

And wither in the lonely shade

And when the petals start to gray

They fill the soil with yesterday

And if I keep on moving forward

Like Eurydice, my happiness

It can't yet be felt, seen or heard

But my patience will bear reward

Just see the light in the little things And victories in little wins

And someday they will grow to fill those ten hours